First gain ever...

and I know just how it happened. At first I was feeling really down about it, I've gained about 5 pounds recently, but I did some emotional eating last week for the first time really since surgery and although I wasn't stuffing myself, i was eating all day for a couple of days before I really noticed what I was doing! Anyway, I actually have a new perspective on it because I know that all I need to do is go back to eating the way I am supposed to and I should be okay...first time in my life I've felt truly IN CONTROL of it once I've fallen off "the wagon" so to speak.

 Wow. I can't wait to feel that kind of control. When I fall off the wagon now it takes sooo long to get back on. It's like falling down a mountain and having to climb back up only to find it got steeper! It's great to have some control to look forward to!

It really is so much better now than it used to be. It used to be that I would spiral down for days or weeks. I know *exactly* how it happened and *exactly* how to stop it and get back on track.  I love that if I just do what I know I am supposed to, I will be right back on track. It's freeing.

Oh my gosh! I could have written that!! But I never thought of it that way. For the first time ever one day off the wagon doesn't worry me because I KNOW it won't turn into two. It's SOOOOOO do-able to get right back on track. And I don't hesitate for a SECOND to get rid of clothes the minute they get a little baggy - b/c I KNOW I'm never going back there!! Thanks for the perspective!!