I haven't been on here in forever, but I felt I needed to come back and see where I started!!! I am now almost 2 years post op on my Sleeve!!!
I have no regrets... however....
I feel like now I am on my own again.... I definitely can eat pretty regular and don't feel as constricted/restricted as before... it's all what I eat I suppose, but I definitely have to be in control or the weight starts to balloon again!!!! I made it to 151lbs at my lowest and now I am holding between 155 and 160. I am 5'7" size 6-8. Why am I not happy? Because I am haunted by the possibility of the weight coming back! So often with WLS it does!!!!
I go to the gym regularly but every so often I skip a week or 2... BIG MISTAKE!!!!!!
I can eat an entire bag of chips but fill up on 1 chicken breast or 1 apple dipped in yogurt! IT's about the choice in food we make I am starting to realize, the worst the food the easier it is to FIT it seems!
I suppose I am sharing so that people *****ad this see it's not easy sailing.. it seems that way when the weight is coming off... but don't get lazy about how easy it is in the beginning because it becomes that uphill battle dieting alone always was for people like us!!!!!!
Also... I still have all my extra skin and worry constantly about being naked with my bf... especially need arm surgery and tummy tuck! I got divorced because of my surgery... I lost a 9 year relationship, I lost my identity and the road to find myself is long and difficult. You always think you won't be that statistic and then you are and it's a shocking and depressing realization that more often than not this surgery doesn't always change things for the better!!!
If anyone out there is in my boat and wants to become encouraging buddies it would greatly be appreciated. I feel like all the support I had is gone and I am drowning in the water in my daily struggles to not backtrack and make it so I lost so much for nothing!
I CANNOT GO BACK ......... I CANNOT!!!!!!!!!
-Every day is a new beginning and a second chance!!!
135 lbs lost total! 6lbs below target weight!!!