August 9, 2010

Aug 08, 2010

Hi, 

At home recovering from panny (can't spell it) surgery.   It's painful but I believe in the end worth it.  I not to the point where I can say I'm glad I had it yet.

My weight still the same.  I like being 183 to 185.  I look smaller but with the surgery I know my shape will change again.

My friends and co workers always remark, I wear clothes too big for me.  I still have the "big girl" mentality and I don't know if that will ever leave me.

I am enjoying life.  The divorce is still proceeding and I am grieving the loss of that part of my life.  I keep trying to think over and over what I could have done better or more right.  I am moving forward.

Still working 2 jobs, on leave from both right now.   But during this surgery, I have learned how many people's lives I have touched.   I have gotten so many phone calls and visits from friends, coworkers, former coworkers, family and neighbors just so many people that I thought I would be very insignificant to.  It shows me how much the Lord has blessed me.  Blessed me more than my hands can possible hold.

Working on getting well.  I have to get back to work!

Pam

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