LOSING GROUND

Jun 03, 2010

Well, there's nothing I can think of that's worse than what I have been doing.  I was doing sooooo good on the preop diet, and when my surgery date got scheduled instead of mid June to June 29, I decided to stay on the preop diet to lose the most weight I could.  I was doing really great, and then my mind kept tellling me "You better eat this certain food before surgery because you probably won't get it anymore, or at least for a long time".  So I started eating all my "favorite" places and eating my favorite meals like it was a "final farewell".  I have gained back like 6 or 8 lb. that I have lost on the preop diet and I am feeling soooo regretful.  I am so ashamed of myself and feel like crap.  How do I shake this and start fresh? How do I get "positive" again?  I have already blown today up til now, but starting at dinner I am going to go back to my "Lean Cuisine" and get back into the swing of this new beginning in my life! Just needed to vent and confess all my weaknesses. 
 

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