FRUSTRATION....

Dec 17, 2009

I am getting so frustrated with this pre-op shake diet. I choose banana Bariatric Advantage shake. I wish they had a variety pack to do. at least I could be taste testing them all. Today I did spice it up with a healthy shake of cinnamon. It was actually very good.

I can say that after the first week of- blah blah boring and one day of set back  that i have found knew strength. Thats right i said it. I went to work-low and behold they were having "the christmas party" of course fat slathered on carbs... i failed. As Judas betrayed Christ- I betrayed my Diet....I saw the BBQ pulled pork and chicken sandwiches. I did choose chicken, only to excuse the sin. later had teriyaki chicken, and to excuse that sin, only ate half.

I woke up deciding I am choosing to be fully committed for the duration of the pre-op requirement!! I cant beat myself up about it though I am having a side affect. I actually had abdominal cramping last night. I know why I faltered from the plan. The night before i was frustrated and needed some kind of boost. I weighed myself and had lost 7 lbs. The news was great but I did my old habit and sabatoged myself."oh i lost weight , I can eat some reward.."

Holy cow, I am my worst enemy!! Wish me luck!!!!!!!!!!

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