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Hey to all of you who have come by my site and checked out my blogs...I have fallen and I am having a hard time getting up....I find myself snacking all the time now...I went 6 months without any sugar and now I find myself eating small candies and things all too often...I have recently converted my garage into a home gym and as I thought I am not as disciplined to go in the garage as I was to go to the gym...I am getting this out because it gives me a sense of responsibility to those of you who have supported me and if I remain silent about it, I feel guilty. 
This journey is so far more than what you look like, please remember that!  I thank God for another chance at this thing everyday.  I am so flawed but one day I know I will get back into the swing of things...once you get off its so hard to get back on...thank Jesus he has blessed me with a wonderful companion, one who happens to be a boxer...he has been wonderful with reminding me to take care of me! I just wanted to let you know that I struggle just like all of us do in some capacity or another and right now, I juggling so many balls I dont know which one I'm going to drop...I didnt realize so much time and effort was going to have to go into maintaining this weight loss...I have not gained any weight which is a blessing and I promise to all of those who support me that I am going to do better so that I have something to blog about..God has kept me for so long and I promise not to disrespect this gift...so today, if you know that you have fallen and have picked up some bad habits again, stand tall....and put it down....its not hard.  Like myself, you have come too far to turn back now.  Dont beat yourself up and surely dont allow anyone else to...I have this saying, "I'm not going to let anyone steal my joy and I'm sure not going to give it to them"  remember that today, dont allow anyone or anything (candy, cake, soda) to steal your joy...you are fearfully and wonderfully made and you have so many others to inspire so keep it up...
I'm going to try not to stay too far away from yall, but I have not had a lot of time to devote to the page.  I just closed on a house yesterday that I am converting into a daycare...hopefully it will be up and running by January...along with that I have started a promotions company, I am now a boxing promoter and will be starting a poker league here in Atlanta so I'm so excited about those fun things I have going on...none which would have been possible had I not decided to have WLS....I love my RNY and not mis-taking the reason why this surgey has been effective for me...
Don't get side tracked, I have quite a bit and I am dedicated today to get back on track and be the success story that so many people admire....Be encourged yall!

Love Ya!

Hello to all my new friends and my old ones.....I want to list a few things that I know are important while on this journey...the other night I was driving in the pouring down rain and it was at that time God used that rain to minister to me...this is what was revealed....
if you are in a storm and its pouring down raining, I mean zero visibility.....it is pouring and you want to pull over because you can not see...you know where you are going but you can see how you are going to get there.....DO NOT pull over and stop in that storm...I repeat, DO NOT pull over in that storm...keep moving, no matter how slow you have to go....put your hazards on, get over in the slow lane and keep it moving...you know why?  Its not raining everywhere....if you pull over in it you get stuck in it...whatever your it is, you have got to keep moving thru it. Just a small distance away, its clear as if it was never raining...you dont have to look back or wonder how you made it thru just keep moving...so many times in this life we want to try to figure "it" out when in all seriousness, God only wants you to keep moving and trust Him that all things work together and not matter how bad it may seem it will work out for your good....

Dont try to compare yourselves with anyone.  I have only lost 103lbs in 11 months...Did I just say "only" I so apologize for that.  I could have easily erased that word and you would have never known that I struggle with the mere fact that so many others have lost so much more than me...SO WHAT....no matter how much you have lost, I can guarantee that it was more than you had lost this time last year or even last month...dont get stuck with trying to compare yourself to anyone else cuz you ever know what that other person had to go thru to get where they are....

Dont beat yourself up...if you fall get urself up, dont dwell on it, we are in recovery just like so many other types of addicts and this journey will last for the rest of our lives.  I have my closest friends and family begging me not to lose another pound and honestly after 1 month my stall is over and I lost 3 lbs last week.  I'd love to tell them that I'm not going to lose another pound but I am trying to get off 13 more pounds.  I tell them with love, I have a goal to acheive and thanks for their support...

Learn to love yourself like nobody ever can....if I dont say anything else in this blog I want you to know that it is so important for you to love yourselves....I struggle so bad with this...I know that I am better than I have ever been in my life, but because of all of the abuse I have self-inflicted, its hard to embrace the change...if you are preop, start loving on yourself now...if you are post op and struggle with this, start today.....look at yourself and tell you that you love you....aint that something, even if you dont mean it right now, do it...im not telling you this just for show...i have to start doing this myself because if you dont stand for something you will fall for anything and I'm so sick of falling....

I know this was long but I love you all and want you so badly to be successful.  Some ppl have made this process seem so easy but its not but its worth the every emotional dip you will experience, I promise!

Be encouraged yall!!!!