Four Days Away

Oct 16, 2011

A week from today I'll be home getting to know my new pouch. I still can't believe I got approved, let alone that THIS IS ACTUALLY HAPPENING.

At church this morning I snuck into the parish office break room to read my Success Habits book while Ben (5yo DS) was in faith formation. I sat there with a cup of water and a leftover birthday cake and cupcakes on the table in front of me, but I wasn't really tempted. A coworker of mine came in and we chatted a bit about my upcoming surgery. She said she was surprised that I was even eligible because she didn't think I was heavy enough. I've heard that a lot. I'm considered a "lightweight." A size 24/26 and I'm a lightweight. I'm glad I'm doing this at age 30 and not age 40 or 50. Or at a much larger size.

I'm still scared I won't be recognizable, and I probably won't be. I've never been skinny as an adult. Will I still be me? What if people hate me because I've sold out. But it's not! It's for my health. It's for my kids. It's for me! It's because skinny is healthier. And I have a whole life waiting for me. 

But I'm still staring at my face a lot this week. Wondering. 

 

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