4 days and counting

Jul 28, 2011

So I have my sugery in 4 days, I have had really good days and some really crappy.  The good days were last week when I spent two days texting and talking to a new beau.  He is out of town and I get random texts from him just enough that I really want more.  I have a new worry now...new guy likes big girls.  I know that I will always be considered big at 5'11".  I don't really see myself dropping below 180 or 175.  So could I be dump for being too small...not going to happen.  The crappy days were the days where my sister was cooking...mancotti, cakes, mexican food.  She is a BIT inconsiderate and a witch.  Watching her eat I can see that she will have problems with her lap-band.  She eats slider foods very little protein. She has not been very supportive concerning my revision from lap-band to VSG.  The problems will increase with my sister as I lose weight.  Her emotions feed off of others...if you are miserable she is on top of the world.  If you are happy she is horrible, mean, and bitter person.  In a couple months she will be moving 4 hours away, not quite far enough for my taste but I will take it.

I am seeing food as an addiction.  I see that I have to work on my mind as I work on my body.  I am excited.  So many new things happening in my world.  New friends, new activities, and most IMPORTANTLY a new ME.

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