2/24/10 Unneccessary Anxiety

Feb 23, 2010

… a post in which our heroine lets the readers in a little bit.

Okay, so here’s the deal. I’ve lost a bunch of weight and have gotten a few key pieces of clothing to prevent “wardrobe malfunctions” (seriously, I almost pantsed myself at the gym).

Why is it so difficult for me to reach into my closet and pull out my old clothing? Does a part of me, deep inside, believe that I will fail at this and I’ll revert back to the way I was? Am I just lazy? Do I think that an empty closet will propel me on a spending spree?

It’s hard to let go of the clothing of the past, especially when it was such a comfort to me. Baggy shirts to hide the form I hated were my creature comfort. I’m sure that once I reach in to pull them out, I’m going to keep the majority of them. I know that there is a book out there giving different options for alterations.

Truth be told, I’m a bonafide packrat. I don’t know why. I guess there is something that tells me that I need to keep the things that I bought all those years ago because someone might mention that they need one and I come to the rescue.

Ugh. Why is this so hard? I keep telling myself “Awww… I’ll just do it tomorrow.” After a dozen tomorrows, everything still hangs in my closet, taunting me.

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