long time in posting

Feb 16, 2010

So I took a long time in posting.  I think i got the same as alot of other people.  Plain fed up with trying.   I went months  6 to be exact slowly slowy gaining back all the weight I lost.  Not only thru fault of my own but depending on a proceedure that I thought was going to fix me once and for all.  So wrong.  I used it as a tool listen to people say give it time it will work.  Wait till you get restriction it will be all better,  dont eat this eat that do more of this work out more.  I think I finally snapped.  After my whatever adjustment, and thinking after 7.4 cc's in my band it should be better.  But it wasnt.  Depression set in in a huge way.  And i do mean huge.   I sat in the Dr. Office and i swear i cried for an hour straight after hitting 200 pounds again.  I dont want to be 200 pounds.. I was sick of my friends telling me i had developed OCD after my surgery with carrying around measuring cups in my purse.  Yeah not the cleanest technique out there.  They decided it was stress and depression and helped me with something to help adjust me.  Maybe its mental at this stage also but I do feel better, Im not crying every single day.  I dont carry around measuring cups anymore.  Im taking it a day at a time,  sometime half a day at a time.  But now i feel like I can get out and move around  I can sleep again,  

Moral of the story, ask for help


PS  ive lost 5 pounds since they put me on some meds...

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