Whine alert

Jan 17, 2012

Yesterday was a difficult day for me.  I started out with a headache.   Actually, I started at the gym.  I've been trying to go some, but I'm not nearly where I was before the plantar fascitiis back in September - an hour 4-6 times a week.  Last week I did the elliptical for 30 minutes, but yesterday I only made 15 minutes - one mile.  I just generally felt crappy, kinda like I do when I go too long without food.  I ate, but nothing seemed good to me.  Last night I had beans, rice and chicken from Taco Cabana.  It was SO satisfying!  I can't eat many carbs, but I seem to do better if I have a few.  If not for the surgery, yesterday would have been the day I fell off the diet wagon, big time!  I wasn't able to eat an entire pack of cookies or a 1/2 gallon of heath bar ice cream, so instead I whined. 

I'm still struggling because my stomach is finished eating before my mouth is finished chewing and tasting.  I'm working to be aware of the volume I eat so that I don't over stuff.  I am working to adapt to the new smaller volume.

(More whining...)  The last couple of weeks (basically since I started back at work) I have had so much back pain.  It starts in my lower back and moves up to my upper back.  I just can't get comfortable.

Today was a much better day.  I'm drinking about 32 ounces a day, with some effort, but tolerating much better.  I woke up this morning at 3 am,  started clearing out some of the junk in the spare rooms.  I finished sorting and hanging all the "skinny" clothes.  I'm in a size 20 now, got the size 18 together.  My weight has been up and down at times and have always been a sale shopper.  I have 24 (TWENTY FOUR!!) pairs of pants in a size 18, not including gym pants, etc.  At least 20 of them were on sale, $40 and up marked down to below $5.  I have about 15 skirts too.  I am so tired of having so much crap in this house.  My kitchen here is so much smaller than my house before and don't have room for all the dishes, glasses I still have.  I'm starting to gather things together to sell on Craigslist.  I am so tired of having all the unnecessary stuff everywhere.  it will probably me take me a few weeks, but I want to get rid of the crap.

I'm down by 41 pounds now.  Hooray!  I think if I lose another 12-15 pounds I'll be in the 18.  So, another month?

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