Need some caffinated advice...

May 01, 2013

So, 4 weeks ago I started my long trek of getting off caffeine completely.  Sadly, this did not last long.  It took 2 weeks until the daily migraines went away.  I mean, we're talking no light, no sound, cannot move type of migraines.  I didn't realize how much I was dependant on caffeine.  Which upsets and scares me all the same because, well, I had some over the last few days.

The past 4 weeks have been abysmal, and I need advice on how to get through the next 2 months before surgery.  I have found myself drinking a little caffeine here and there, with today me having a freaking red bull because I just couldn't take it anymore.  :(  I was falling asleep at work, going out to my car at lunch to sleep, coming home from work and being in bed by 8pm and sleeping until 6:30 the next morning, only to feel like I haven't slept.  I KNOW, I KNOW there is no doubt that I am sleeping TOO much, but the problem is, I can't keep my eyes open.

I'm pissed off at myself to say the least, because I know I'm better than that.  And there is NO way I'm going to sit here and throw a pity party for myself because I REFUSE to play victim over something I knowingly did to myself.  If there is anything I'm going to do, I'm going to take ownership of every stupid thing I do, in hopes anyone else has been there and could give me advice on how to rectify this.  Come hell or high water, I'm going to rock this, and throw obesity right back at her face and say "NO THANK YOU."

I've looked up websites and they all tell me to sleep more, meditate, pray, go out in nature, exercise....etc etc etc....Been there done that, still doing it.  I'm thinking vitamins are the key here.  But not sure what kind to take. 

I would be grateful for any thoughts on this.  Thanks everyone!

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