indygirl
Umm, yeah...today, not so great
Apr 06, 2011
Ok, there are a few things that have happened since I opened my eyes this morning that have more than pissed me off. I must say, that today has been a trying day and Im stressed; therefore, I eat. I haven't eaten volumes of food, but I have grazed on not the right things today. Vitamins were great as usual, but I craved salty and crunchy today, so I ate chips. Ive eaten mostly fruit today and I had a bit of a baked potato. I also ate one of those thin bagels with cream cheese. I have not had a protein shake today because, frankly, I didnt feel like gagging. I wont work out today because Im sore as hell from yesterdays beating. It was great, I will go back, but today, its just not happening. I havent lost weight in about 2wks. I was doing so well and onderland is so close, but I have to ask myself, am I self sabotaging. It's something about getting so close to the 100s and then all hell breaks loose. This is ridiculous. I risked my life to get this surgery 2x and I feel like it's the end already. I usually dont have these types of feelings, but today is an abnormal day. What to do...what to do. I asked earlier in my recovery, how do I turn this thing around, and now, I'm back to square one. Damn!!
