indygirl
205
Apr 07, 2011
Didnt think I had lost any weight, but got on the dr. scale yesterday and it read 205lbs. When I was there 2 wks ago, it said 207lbs so for the past 2 weeks of TOM and eating not so greatly, I still managed to lose 2lbs. Not the best, but I wasnt expecting anything because I've been feeling bloated lately. My lovely children have once again brought home sometype of stomach virus and They are slowly getting ill day by day. One by one, they are waking up vomiting and having diarhea. As a matter of fact, it's 3am where I live and Im up washing bed sheets. I actually got thrown up on...lovely, I know. Hopefully, I can get this place cleaned out and germ free really soon. Ive started a 7 day detox to help with sugar cravings and it seems to be doing the trick. I didnt crave sugar yesterday. The pills are huge, but I take it slowly because breaking them up is more of a hassle. The 100s are very close and I think Im a bit nervous. I took the time to go back over my blog entries from day 1 (2006) and I think the lowest weight before I started to balloon back up was 197lbs. Right now, its mind over everything. I have to get my mind right in order to defeat the voice inside that tells me, "OK, your body is comfortable around 200lbs, you've never gotten any lower, so just deal with it." This can't be it for me and I need to make sure I work on things inside that will try and sabotage my efforts. My goal is size 6 and Im currently wearing 14-16s, down from 18-20. My goal weight, I believe to be between 140-145lbs. I cant remember EVER being that weight. I was 180lbs in 9th grade. I dieted one time as an adult down to about 167lbs. I was EVER SO DISCIPLINED. But once again, I self sabotaged, because I have a big belly and that's all my mind focused on, so I never saw a thin, healthy 167lb person. I gained that weight just as quickly as I'd lost it. Bummer!! Oh well, it's a new season, a new day, fresh annointing coming my way...power, and prosperity!!! I claim it in the Mighty Name of Jesus!!
