kakehy
Too Big for the Lifevest :(
Jul 04, 2011
Although I was visiting my inlaws family on a beautiful lakehouse I had a sad moment :(I really wanted to try the waverunners that had just steps from their back door but was nervous about my balance. This is because my center of gravity has shifted since putting on 100lbs in 10 years.
ANYWAY...I was all set to do it but sadly could not fit into the super extra large adult life vest that was given to me.
I was the only one in a house full of 30 adults that could not fit into it and I became disappointed in myself, frusterated, embarrassed, disgusted in myself and embarrassed....oh yeah, I said that already.
I put on my sunglasses, went to play some batmitten (spelling?) instead with my husband. The sunglasses helped hide my tears from the family members I was meeting but my husband knew I was not happy. I was upset for not even an hour then blew it off.
Aside from that incident I was just uncomfortable in general as my belly looks like I swallowed a truck tire. I just have a huge tire around my middle above my belly button! Any position I sit in is uncomfortable and embarrassing. Leaning back accentuates it (and makes breathing a bit more tricky)...Leaning forward makes me slouch...sitting up it shows. There's no hiding it.
Overall I had a fantastic weekend! Just very disappointed in myself that I did this to my body.
I am pre-op....No surgery date yet (too early)...Very nervous about the surgery and how I will feel afterwards with eating.
Lots to think about...
Thanks for listening :)
