Motivated and Movin' Forward

Dec 28, 2009

Alright so the last time I went to the doctor, I lost nothing but gained nothing also. I was a little disappointed in myself and felt as though I were letting myself, my friends and my medical posse down. I felt disgusted in  myself that I couldn't even control myself for a while until I could get the surgery. To add to my self-abuse, the doctor came off a little hard on me.. not that I didn't need it, mind you!

So I came home and immediatly called up my bff to cry and curse. She's always been a source of strength for me and has always been my most loyal of cheerleaders and this time was no different. Without her help that day, I might have been tempted to give up totally.

What happened was the exact opposit. I steeled myself and began the diet the next day. Now I won't lie and say that I have followed it to the letter because I have eaten a taste of my son's raviolis at lunch and instead of having 3oz of meat per day I have a whole chicken breast. But yeah, Im proud of myself! Ive not binged once in the last two weeks.

Two weeks! That is a major accomplishment for me!

I also started on a self imposed liquid diet today. So at the moment I am starving and cranky. According to the whole caloric intake versus energy burned, Im 5oz down... per day. Baby steps!

Dr. man said that when I lose 4-6 pounds I am to ask the nurses for a followup with him. He said at that time we can discuss a surgery date. Wish me luck!

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