Coming Clean...

Sep 07, 2012

 So the past few months have not been going so well. I hit my lowest when I went to the Norcal meet up at 192 then I just started not caring. And its not like this whole time I've been just eating whatever. I've been on stupid diet trips, like all protein shakes (would start off strong then crumble towards midweek), drastically cutting calories (never works out end of day), Over exercising (one word "ouch"). All of these "diets" were just that, a diet not a lifestyle change. 
By Labor day I was at 209 pounds!!!! The past couple of months I've been around 195-197 then stress and denial got me up to 209, not to mention binge eating on the weekends (lots of foamies and tummy aches... not fun).
Life is good right now, my moms in good health and recovering, so is my dad. Work is GREAT I love it, its challenging and my coworkers are GREAT. I guess I just needed to get to this point.
So Tuesday I weighed in at 209.4 pounds and this morning I weighed in at 206.2 pounds. I'll take the three pound loss. I've been eating protein, protein, protein and have been walking with my Dad at night to build his stamina up from his cancer removal surgery. 
It took me SO long to actually come clean about this, with myself, my family and my extended family online but I feel like this is the best way to get past this and move on to goal.
I've actually stayed away from myfitnesspal. I don't think I'm ready for all the calories and fat grams and protein grams yet. I'll just trust myself and eat smarter.
When I start throwing carbs back into the mix I'll start logging it in but for now, this works for me. 
I'm taking it one day at a time and one meal at a time. I'm hoping to make a youtube vlog soon for all my youtube followers. I've gotten so much since my absense and I apologize for not having the lady balls to get back on. I promise soon I will get on and give everyone an update. 
Everyone take Care and Keep Kickin Ass
XO
Kristen

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