So I used to be a regular on here, I would get to work early to check in with everyone and spend my breaks and lunch on this site. Until my gallbladder removal on August 22nd, I am still at home due to complications and now I am severly depressed and have completely fallen off track. I NEED to eat better and start my ZUMBA again, WHY?!?!?!? is it so hard for me to get started. I KNOW that it makes me feel better and I LOVE doing it but I just cant get myself started. Please pray for me...... I really NEED to push past this depression and start taking care of myself.

I am so close to my goal weight and I look in the mirror and want more. Maybe I should be 160 and not 180 but then I fear that it will be a vicious cycle and 160 will become 140 and 140 will become 120.  
So my point is, Will I EVER be satisfied with my weight???????

Go me, Go me, Go me!!!!! Finally at 198.8 at 6 months out. I am so grateful for my surgery, it has not been easy and I teetered between 202 and 200 for like 26 days but I am here!!!

I cried and laughed like a mad woman this morning LOL

So my fiance and I have been fighting alot lately. We truely have alot of stressors! We have 2 children, he lost his job not too long ago (thnak god he is working again), my mom has been very ill, his mother - who lives with us- fell and hurt herself. So needless to say , alot of yelling has ensued and unlike a year ago - I yell back. I used to stay quiet and hold everything in.

Well, lately I have been giving it back. So yesterday, he walks over to me and shows me a picture from when I was 280lbs and proceeds to tell me that he misses that girl.

WTF!?!?!?!?!? is that supposed to mean. I am still that girl but no longer willing to take yelling and insults without giving it back.

Sometimes I think that I might not be in love with him but I can not bear the thought of being without him. I dont know what to think. I went to see that counselor and I was not happy. She is too young for my liking - I want someone with more experience.

Thanks for letting me vent

My Aunt came to visit my mom from Florida last night, so this morning I stopped by to see her on my way to work.

I walked in the door and she did a double take LOL, she was shocked. A few minutes later she said "Oh God, I can't look at you in the face! It is so crazy how much different you look. You're face is soo thin"

I am not in Onederland yet, I dont think, but this is definitely an awesome NON Scale Victory!!!!

This is the Aunt that everyone dreads seeing because she will tell you like it is and lets face it - nobody in my family likes to hear the truth LOL - surprisingly she is one of my favorite Aunts.