So, it has come to this...

Jun 07, 2012

I have my sleeve tomorrow morning.  I'm still sorting through my feelings, but I'm glad that the day is finally here!

God, I'm tired!  Like, bone-butt tired.  I woke up at 8am without an alarm.  My mother in law is very unwell in hospital, and is not getting better.  We had to spend a lot of time sorting through her hospice care options today with her care team, and it was a bit emotional.  We had to leave early to get to the surgeon's office to finish up the last of the business end of things for my surgery tomorrow.  Then we had to find a grocery store (not easy in this town, lemme tell ya).  I'm having surgery in Pontiac, MI by the way.

We got a bottle of clove, cardamom, and cinnamon water and it tastes just like chai--mmm!  And a bottle of lavender mint water.  Just cause I'm on a liquid diet doesn't mean it has to suck.

We're staying at the Residence Inn Marriot, and the room is so cute and comfortable, and has a microwave for my broth (thank God!)  I took my milk of magnesia an hour ago which was surprisingly not nasty.  Oh, and I straight up "ate" an entire quart of low sodium chicken broth after I peppered the heck out of it.

I'm not super hunger, but my head hurts though.  Probably low blood sugar. 

I have to have a shower tonight with Hibiclens, and another one in the morning before we go to the hospital.   I don't relish filling out a crap-load of forms tomorrow morning when I'm hungry, barely awake, and scared.  I hope they can give me a little something to relax me kind of quickly.

I'm having a hard time thinking right now, probably because I'm so tired.  I wanted to write something eloquent and philosophical about losing something, and gaining something, and sacrifice, and how positive I feel about moving ahead with this whole experience but I'm afraid that will have to wait.

I'm kind of sleeping with my eyes open     I was going to have a swim tonight, but I think the best thing to do now is to just have a sleep.

A woman today told me that I was beautiful (and the fact that I'm Irish makes me too perfect!)  "You're beautiful, and Irish, what more could a woman want?"  That random act of kindness made me feel so great--it was just some lady on the elevator at my mother in law's hospital--she didn't know me, but she made my day!

I've decided that I'm gonna work this sleeve for all its worth, and the party starts tomorrow!

Got to go, the milk of magnesia is kicking in!

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