Today is full of doubts

Sep 15, 2011

Well, now that I've busted my hump getting everything done for the insurance and it looks promising that it will be approved, I'm having a lot of doubt today.  I know that this is going to help me fight that 'always hungry' feeling and I hear that I won't be hungry after WLS but I fear the mental aspect.  I like the way food tastes. I didn't want to stop eating, I just wanted to eat less. My logical brain is saying that I'll be fine and healthier but fear is a powerful emotion.

The pre-op diet is tough.  Very restrictive and I'm left hungry. Also hard because everyone else in the house is able to eat whatever they want. I'll never be able to eat what I want again in my life, ever!

I just wish I would get the answer back ASAP. I think knowing for sure, one way or the other, would go a long way in settling things for me.  I think some of this fear is my way of not getting my hopes up too high, just in case I get denied.

On the good side of today, I spent quite a bit of time with my grandson.  That helped remind me why I am doing this in the first place - so I can spend more time with my grandchildren and more quality time!

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