Pre-op appointment

Oct 10, 2011

Tomorrow is my pre-op appointment. I will get my actual surgery date. I am so nervous. I didn't think I would be. I'd been so calm though all the testing and waiting for the insurance approval, now I'm worried, nervous, I don't know what. I'm worried that I won't be able to stick to the diet requirements of my WLS. This is based on my inability to stick to the pre-op diet more than a few days at a time. I'm nervous about the surgery itself. I guess the other feeling is excitement. For the first time in a long time I have hope. Maybe this time next year, I will look like the person I feel like inside.

This pre-op diet is killing me. So hungry!!! I have been really cheating and yesterday the truth was right there in front of me. I gained 4 pounds in 7 days. I have to try harder to stick to this diet.  Going to be really hard.  My birthday is this Thursday and I want to treat myself to dinner at my favorite restaurant.  I try to think of other ways to treat myself but nothing comes to mind that I would consider a treat. Food has always been the key to celebrating. I know that wen I start dropping the pounds, I plan to celebrate by getting a couple outfits in the new size but we're not there yet and I certainly don't want to buy cloths in this size. I'll have to put more energy into thinking of a birthday treat.

Tomorrow is a new day.  I am determined to wake up and stay on track: 4 protein drinks, 3 oz meat and 2 cups of veggies.  Just went grocery shopping and got a bunch of fresh veggies.  I had the meat man weight out 3 oz of shrimp and count them up. Then I ordered a pound. That will taste good tossed in with some stir fried veggies. Starting to get used to the taste of those protein drinks.

Also going to try to start on the exercise routine tomorrow.  I wanted to use my stationary bike but I can't seem to find it in storage. The tension band and some exercise videos will have to do for now. I only do low impact until I lose some weight.  My knees can't take the weight of my body . My daughter is supposed to be joining me for the exorcise part of this routine but she keeps making excuses (she learned from the best).

Speaking of learning bad habits from our parents, I was thinking about this the other day.  I always said I never regretted anything but that is not true.  I wish I had been a better role model of healthy eating and daily exercise to my kids. They all struggle with their weight but my third child is almost as big as me already and having a lot of the same problems. I didn't do that girl any favors growing up.

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