So Many Questions, So Few Answers!!

Apr 10, 2011

Well, the CR passed, so work is back to "business as usual", which is good.......but man o man, that was very stressful last week!!  UGH!!  I want to cuss out the a-holes for putting me through that!! 

I did learn a lesson from last week.  I am still very bad at succombing to stress with my eating.  I immediately let myself off of the hook with eating AND exercise because I was under stress.  Not good.  Life is going to be full of stress, and as I have noted, my trusty band might not be with me for a lifetime.  That's just the facts.  I really need to work on that.  I picked up a book over the weekend that has been reccomended on the LapBand board called, "The End Of Overeating" by David Kessler.  I have heard very good things about it.  I hope that it helps me get to a sane place with my eating.

I though things out this weekend and have decided that I will probably cancel my appointment with Dr. Acosta this Friday.  Debra, the nurse, called me this past Friday to remind me of my appointment.  I told her that I didn't need an adjustment, but thought about inquiring about a revision.  She told me that he wouldn't do that....said he would only revise me to another band, but not a different surgery.  Hmmmmmm   That's not what he told me last fall when he mentioned we could look in to getting the sleeve for me if I don't lose weight with good restriction. 

I told Debra (whom I love) that I was very frustrated with my weightloss.  I have been very good with my exercise over the last 3 months and pretty good with my eating, but the scale wasn't moving.  She reminded me that muscle weighs more than fat.  Blah blah blah.   That gets harder to swallow, the longer I stay at this current weight. 

I thought about it quite a bit over the weekend and I don't have enough answers, but I have come to some conclusions and goals for myself. 

I know that I do not need a fill.  I don't want my band to be any tighter than it is right now.  Besides, head hunger, I rarely feel hungry right now, and I can only eat about 1/2 to 3/4 cup of solid protein at a time. 

I also know that I need to seriously stay away from simple carbs period, and try to stay away from complex carbs as much as possible.  I also need to keep being faithful with my exercise and turn it up a notch when I can.  Water, water, water.........I HAVE to start getting my water in EVERY SINGLE DAY!!  I have been very bad about that.  I am not sure why, but I have. 

I am vowing to track everything for a bit.  If I can see on paper that my carbs and calories are good, and my exercise is good, but I am still not losing weight, then I will make an appointment with my PCP.  I want to make sure my thyroid is working properly.   

I have been lucky, since I was so bad last week........the scale showed 197 this morning.  I was expecting to be back to 200.  I am thankful, I wasn't!!

So, for now, not looking to revise to a different WLS, just looking to make sure the one that I have does the job, along with ME.  Here we go!!

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