Making the appointments.

Oct 26, 2011

Well I am halfway done with making the appointments that I need for clearance for surgery. I've made them with the nutritionist (Joy Licata) and the cardiologist (Dr. Balveen Singh) who are also donating their services. That just leaves the psychology and pulmnology appointments left to make. I also have to go get some bloodwork done but I have to make sure the lab near my home is still around because I haven't gone there in around two years.

Today was my first full day back on any sort of diet plan since my last attempt back in December. I tried eDiets home delivery for two weeks and it was gross. I haven't had much will power since my surgery denial in 2008, back then they told me I needed to lose around 180 pounds so every time I have attempted a diet since them I kept thinking to myself "Really, Nutrisystem is going to help me lose 180 pounds? Psh." and I'd stay on it for a month or two until my jeans felt better and I liked myself a little bit better in the mirror and then off the wagon I went. I only had hope in bariatric surgery, and if I couldn't have it then I figured I was going to be fat the rest of my life.

However, today when I started I knew there was a reason behind it. I'm doing this BECAUSE I am going to have bariatric surgery. I am doing this to make the surgery easier. I am doing this to show Dr. Buchin that I am serious about losing weight, that I understand this is a complete lifestyle change and I am committed to this not just for a month or two but for the rest of my life. Of course today was easy because it was just day one, a week from now I may be cranky because I want bread (pizza is my undoing) and he told me to limit the amount of carbs but I will get over it. I was sent some websites for recipes, I just haven't had the chance to go over them yet.

I am replacing one of my meals with a protein shake, and it just so happens that I actually won a raffle too at the OH Event and it was a basket filled with Premier Protein shakes. It's mixed with ones that look like drink boxes that are already pre-mixed and boxes with packets you mix yourself. Today I tried the drink-box (what else should I call this?) strawberry and it was pretty good. Yes, I have been told that I must try Chike! I am receiving a year free of Chike but I think that starts after my surgery. I see everyone raving about them on Facebook and I can't wait to try them!

That's all for today. No major meltdowns or anything so far. The funny thing is I have not cried once as of yet, my mom has cried plenty of times but I guess since I still don't believe it I can't let myself break down and have a good cry over something wonderful. I may be bawling like a baby on 12/19 though.

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