Darla S.
Happy New Year
Jan 04, 2010
That's what I'm hoping and praying for, anyway - last year was anything but happy. Not that I didn't have a lot of happy, I'm typically a pretty "up" person. But I - meaning my family and I - had more than our fair share of icky in 2009.So I've decided to focus on some of the GOOD that came of it all.
I learned, at age 47, that I can not be everything to everyone. Sometimes I might find myself in the right place, at the right time, in the right state of mind to do something really worthwhile, and that's GOOD!! But for those occasions when I can not be what others think they need me to be, I have learned to forgive myself. To accept that I'm not all that, and sometimes I need to conserve my emotional energy for the people I'm closest to - my family, and dearest friends. That has been one heckuva hard lesson to learn!
I find myself secretly THRILLED every day that my legs no longer rub together when I walk! Whodathunk???
After literally MONTHS of breathing issues, and sleeping in a recliner, my DH finally accepted and followed through with the need to have surgery for his sinus issues. Men really are wimps, I'm afraid - his was outpatient surgery for a deviated septum and a bone spur in his upper sinuses. 2 months later, I found myself needing surgery to remove masses from my ovaries, and to have a big messy hernia in my upper abdomen fixed. I had to spend 4 nights in the hospital. The silver lining to it all was that Dr. Jones, who stepped in after my OB took care of the masses and ovaries, also decided he needed to remove a large portion of the extra skin I carried on my lower belly "to aid in wound healing". Wow.... I've said this a million times, but I truly never even allowed myself to HOPE for that! No rash, and I know it's rarely covered by insurance. So that was a definite PLUS to having to go through all the rest of it!
I have grown even closer to a group of dear, compassionate, fun, generous and diverse WLS friends - become a part of a circle of unconditional love unlike ever before in my life. The downside? Dealing with people who are just plain jealous of what we have found. The upside? Immeasurable. I have learned to stop apologizing for this gift, and just appreciate and enjoy it!
There's even an upside to my DH having been unemployed since last March - he has come to appreciate what he has, rather than focus on all the things we DON'T have. We have managed to skim by, with more than a little help and generosity from my mother. I pray that 2010 bring him either new employement, or the opportunity to get his eggs in a row so that he can get work on his own - insurance, LLC certification and all. It's scary, but maybe it would turn out to be a really good thing? I just hope I wouldn't have to do TOO much to help manage his business, although the chances of that are probably slim and none. I'd REALLY prefer to just have him get HIRED by someone else!!! The economy sucks eggs.
I guess I'm really happy that I have continued to watch the scale move slowly DOWN (VERY slowly!), when the stress and issues I've had to deal with this year would have been the perfect opportunity or EXCUSE to stuff crap in my face! My goal for THIS year, preferably in time for my 3 year surgiversary, would be to see that elusive place called ONEDERLAND!
But if I don't? Hey, at least my thighs still aren't rubbing together!
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About Me
Maple Grove, MN
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26.5
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Surgery
04/27/2007
Surgery Date
Jan 12, 2007
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