music_mama
Hurry up and wait....
Aug 02, 2011
Well, I had my pre-op testing last Friday so now I'm playing the waiting game. It would be great if they called me tomorrow to let me know my labs were in. Then I could move on to the surgeon and get my upper GI done and surgery scheduled.I have always believed that if something was supposed to 'be' that it would happen fairly easy. THIS has been really difficult. I keep doing my end with ease but the group that is supposed to be helping me seems to be taking their sweet ass time. So while I struggle with whether or not this is the path I'm supposed to be on, I also see where my current path is leading. I'm almost 31, 5'6" and 258lbs. I feel like a 65 year old woman most of the time. While I wish this process was easier I know that if I throw in the towel that I will just be giving up on myself again. I keep looking through the before and after pics and imagining what it will be like when I am carrying around less of the burden I have become. To breathe easier, dance, sing, jog, play with my baby,....geez even having sex will be less of a struggle. So I see where I am now and I'm dreaming of what it can be like in less than a year.....so I will hurry up and wait again tomorrow.