Hurry up and wait....

Aug 02, 2011

Well, I had my pre-op testing last Friday so now I'm playing the waiting game. It would be great if they called me tomorrow to let me know my labs were in. Then I could move on to the surgeon and get my upper GI done and surgery scheduled. 
I have always believed that if something was supposed to 'be' that it would happen fairly easy. THIS has been really difficult. I keep doing my end with ease but the group that is supposed to be helping me seems to be taking their sweet ass time. So while I struggle with whether or not this is the path I'm supposed to be on, I also see where my current path is leading. I'm almost 31, 5'6" and 258lbs. I feel like a 65 year old woman most of the time. While I wish this process was easier I know that if I throw in the towel that I will just be giving up on myself again.  I keep looking through the before and after pics and imagining what it will be like when I am carrying around less of the burden I have become. To breathe easier, dance, sing, jog, play with my baby,....geez even having sex will be less of a struggle. So I see where I am now and I'm dreaming of what it can be like in less than a year.....so I will hurry up and wait again tomorrow.

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