music_mama
Almost 2 Weeks Post-op
Aug 23, 2011
Time has been flying! In less than 4 weeks I have already lost 23 pounds! And with that I have also noticed so HUGE changes with my body. I no longer have issues with urinary incontinence, my ankles, knees, and hips don't ache like they did, and I have a LOT more energy. I teach and today is our third day back with kids. Since I teach music I am finding that I am able to skip, hop, dance, and play with the kids like I used to. By the end of the year last year I was basically teaching from my chair because I was in pain all the time. So Hooray for that!
I do have some things I need to work on though. I haven't been doing very well getting my protein and water in...or even keeping track. With being back to work I'm having to figure out a better system to get it all in since I'm pretty much on the go ALL day from 6:30am-7pm. If anyone has any pointers I would appreciate it!
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I do have some things I need to work on though. I haven't been doing very well getting my protein and water in...or even keeping track. With being back to work I'm having to figure out a better system to get it all in since I'm pretty much on the go ALL day from 6:30am-7pm. If anyone has any pointers I would appreciate it!
Sleeved!
Aug 14, 2011
I did it! On Thursday the 11th I went in around noon for my procedure at 1pm. It's a done deal. I had a rough day on Friday due to a mucus plug, but after I got rid of that I felt much better. Today is Sunday and it's the first day that I have actually been hungry and that food looks appealing. Of course I am scared to death to touch it which is good because I can't have it any way! I start back to work teaching tomorrow and I will have to leave my baby with my sister. I'm REALLY sad about this but I am also glad that I am unable to stress eat over all of it. I'm looking forward to see what is going to happen and fall off!
Save the Date!
Aug 09, 2011
Well, they gave me a new person to work with through TLC and in a day in a half I have met with a surgeon and have the date set for Thursday. Competence is a beautiful thing! I am INCREDIBLY nervous but I'm psyched to take my before picture and and compare it to my after picture in several months. this has been loooonnnggg in coming.
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Hurry up and wait....
Aug 02, 2011
Well, I had my pre-op testing last Friday so now I'm playing the waiting game. It would be great if they called me tomorrow to let me know my labs were in. Then I could move on to the surgeon and get my upper GI done and surgery scheduled.
I have always believed that if something was supposed to 'be' that it would happen fairly easy. THIS has been really difficult. I keep doing my end with ease but the group that is supposed to be helping me seems to be taking their sweet ass time. So while I struggle with whether or not this is the path I'm supposed to be on, I also see where my current path is leading. I'm almost 31, 5'6" and 258lbs. I feel like a 65 year old woman most of the time. While I wish this process was easier I know that if I throw in the towel that I will just be giving up on myself again. I keep looking through the before and after pics and imagining what it will be like when I am carrying around less of the burden I have become. To breathe easier, dance, sing, jog, play with my baby,....geez even having sex will be less of a struggle. So I see where I am now and I'm dreaming of what it can be like in less than a year.....so I will hurry up and wait again tomorrow.
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I have always believed that if something was supposed to 'be' that it would happen fairly easy. THIS has been really difficult. I keep doing my end with ease but the group that is supposed to be helping me seems to be taking their sweet ass time. So while I struggle with whether or not this is the path I'm supposed to be on, I also see where my current path is leading. I'm almost 31, 5'6" and 258lbs. I feel like a 65 year old woman most of the time. While I wish this process was easier I know that if I throw in the towel that I will just be giving up on myself again. I keep looking through the before and after pics and imagining what it will be like when I am carrying around less of the burden I have become. To breathe easier, dance, sing, jog, play with my baby,....geez even having sex will be less of a struggle. So I see where I am now and I'm dreaming of what it can be like in less than a year.....so I will hurry up and wait again tomorrow.
appointments are in the works
Jul 25, 2011
I had my meeting with the dietician this morning and now have my pre-op appointment set up for Wednesday morning. Now all I'm waiting on is a date for surgery. My next focus is going to be getting psyched up for my 2 weeks of liquids. I'm about to scour through message boards and research the ways people have made it bearable for themselves....I'm not gonna lie, I"m really nervous about this. I can tell because all I've wanted to do today is EAT, I will be glad when I don't have that as an option (well, not really at least) On to my research!
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Overwhelmed much?
Jul 23, 2011
Well, I'm probably about 3 weeks out from having surgery. About the time I think I have made my decision about what procedure something starts nagging at me, tugging at what I thought I knew, as if to say 'HA HA HA!!! THINK AGAIN!!!'
I decided back in march to pursue surgery. It has been on my mind for a long time but I've finally reached a place where I know it's time. I decided to go through the surgery group my father used and began working with my case manager. He served as the go-between with my insurance company. We received one set of requirement in March and when I had finished those, all of a sudden they were singing a different tune.... So now it is the end of July and no much has changed. I've put on roughly 15-20lbs since march which has sucked. And I am now persuing surgery as a self-pay. I feel incrediby selfish about it. It is a HUGE amount of money and we have been working really hard to become debt free. And while I feel really selfish I also feel like I am drowning and that I'm the only one that is going to save me. I work full time as a music teacher; and that's not counting all of th unpaid timeI put in. I also have roughly 15 piano students that I teach in the evening after school until nearly 7pm. I recently took on a third job working with a music company called Kindermusik teaching classes for Newborns to age 7. And somewhere in there I am mother to an almost 11month old, a wife, lover, house keeper, daughter, sister, house cleaner, dog pee cleaner, laundry doer, banker, and occasional dinner fixer.
So all of that to say, I love my family, I love my work, but I don't love myself and I have really put myself on the back-burner.....for FAR too long.
We've tried Jenny Craig, medifasy, WW, alli, xenadrine, herbalife, acai something-or-other, personal trainer for months on end.......you name it. 1000's of dollars down the drain looking for a crutch to help me limp back to a healthy weight...and all it did was send me running into morbid obesity. I look like the girl that ate me. My face is so full I don't look like myself. I am akward and clutsy constantly losing my balance. My hip, knees, ankles and back....the constant aching and swelling has almost become more than I can bear. How am I supposed to lift and play with my baby, chase her around when she can walk, take her to the zoo someday....how am I supposed to be a sufficient lover to my husband when I can barely keep my eyes open at the end of the day.....how am I supposed to teach music, dance, sing, run, skip, hop, or even muster the energy to consider those things? I am drowning is this mushy outter shell that has totally consumed who I am. I need more help than I can give myself or than my family or husband can give me. I need a drastic change. A major medical intervention before I don't have the energy to dream that my life can be different; be better.
On monday morning I will speak with the dietician about my pre-op diet and then talk to my coordinator about when I go in for my pre-op blook work, EKG, and upper-GI if they decide to do one. Hopefully we will be able to get started immediately and get my surgery scheduled ASAP. I'm soooo ready to feel like me again. To be my smiling bubbly confident self....not just the fatty that ate her.
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I decided back in march to pursue surgery. It has been on my mind for a long time but I've finally reached a place where I know it's time. I decided to go through the surgery group my father used and began working with my case manager. He served as the go-between with my insurance company. We received one set of requirement in March and when I had finished those, all of a sudden they were singing a different tune.... So now it is the end of July and no much has changed. I've put on roughly 15-20lbs since march which has sucked. And I am now persuing surgery as a self-pay. I feel incrediby selfish about it. It is a HUGE amount of money and we have been working really hard to become debt free. And while I feel really selfish I also feel like I am drowning and that I'm the only one that is going to save me. I work full time as a music teacher; and that's not counting all of th unpaid timeI put in. I also have roughly 15 piano students that I teach in the evening after school until nearly 7pm. I recently took on a third job working with a music company called Kindermusik teaching classes for Newborns to age 7. And somewhere in there I am mother to an almost 11month old, a wife, lover, house keeper, daughter, sister, house cleaner, dog pee cleaner, laundry doer, banker, and occasional dinner fixer.
So all of that to say, I love my family, I love my work, but I don't love myself and I have really put myself on the back-burner.....for FAR too long.
We've tried Jenny Craig, medifasy, WW, alli, xenadrine, herbalife, acai something-or-other, personal trainer for months on end.......you name it. 1000's of dollars down the drain looking for a crutch to help me limp back to a healthy weight...and all it did was send me running into morbid obesity. I look like the girl that ate me. My face is so full I don't look like myself. I am akward and clutsy constantly losing my balance. My hip, knees, ankles and back....the constant aching and swelling has almost become more than I can bear. How am I supposed to lift and play with my baby, chase her around when she can walk, take her to the zoo someday....how am I supposed to be a sufficient lover to my husband when I can barely keep my eyes open at the end of the day.....how am I supposed to teach music, dance, sing, run, skip, hop, or even muster the energy to consider those things? I am drowning is this mushy outter shell that has totally consumed who I am. I need more help than I can give myself or than my family or husband can give me. I need a drastic change. A major medical intervention before I don't have the energy to dream that my life can be different; be better.
On monday morning I will speak with the dietician about my pre-op diet and then talk to my coordinator about when I go in for my pre-op blook work, EKG, and upper-GI if they decide to do one. Hopefully we will be able to get started immediately and get my surgery scheduled ASAP. I'm soooo ready to feel like me again. To be my smiling bubbly confident self....not just the fatty that ate her.