slipping off the wagon and scooching back up

Jun 10, 2014

I haven't checked in this past week and a half its been crazy busy... first off I use this forum as kind of a journey diary and as a means to hold myself accountable and cut my personal bs. For the past 4 days I have been eating way more than I should. In my previous lifestyle pre wls my husband and I were foodies and kind of snobish foodies lol and we entertained a fellow foodie friend who was visiting for a few days and so well I've kept my wls surgery on the DL. only like 5-6 people know I had it done and its not that I'm ashamed of doing the best thing for me which was wls but I don't feel like explaining it to every person and then getting their personal opinions on my choice. so anyhow I just basically ordered small meals ate about 1/2 and put the rest in a take a way box...and he said wow your looking slimmer and I was like I just do that diet where you eat a few small meals throughout the day and he was like ya that makes sense...The problem is this week I've indulged in sweets and did not always put protein first and as we know thats a big no no, so I'm guilty I weighed myself at 177.8 so this time as a punishment I'm rounding up to 178. Another thing I've noticed is I get ck defensive when people compliment me by saying I've lost weight, which is nuts because I know its positive feedback but for some reason it feels back handed to me like wow you were fat before and now you've lost some weight, which is true and hard to say "I am fat I was obese now I am overweight," I guess there is mental conditioning with this process as well. So back to my diet protein shake in the morning soup for lunch and a protein dense dinner which for me is some type of chicken...lol  

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