Day 13 & 14

Jan 04, 2011

Hopefully, this is my last double day blog for a while. Yesterday, I fell off the wagon, and I completely went off course. I didn't eat cake or anything, but I didn't eat slowly, or pay attention to what I was eating. I also didn't record my food, or blog about anything.

Yesterday, I took a step back, and reverted to my old depressed self. I was stressing unnessicarily about work stuff, which I really shouldn't be worried about right now. I need to stay focused on me. My biggest New Years resolution is to prioritize myself more, and stop worrying so much about things I can't fix. Right now, there is nothing I can do about what is going on at work, so I need to just let it go. These are important weeks leading up to my surgical date, weeks when I need to really be building better habits. 

I spoke with my counselor about these feelings, and she really helped me self-reflect, and think about my feelings. I also enjoy how revitalized I feel after seeing her. I did a lot of reflection today about how I want to feel, and how I want to live, and I feel pretty good about my fresh start tomorrow.

I went to the nutritionist yesterday, and it was very informative. I learned some of the mistakes I was making, and I learned more about how my diet will be after surgery. A couple of surprises: Peas - not a vegetable. They are actually a starch. (So are cooked carrots.) Also, olive oil is really bad for you. I always thought olive oil was good for you, but apparently it is super calorie rich. Good to know. I was a little worried about a couple of things, but they aren't anything major. The first is that most people can't tolerate grapes post-surgery. This makes me a little sad, because I love grapes. But, I can give them up.
The other thing I am a little nervous about is the protein shake phase after surgery. It sounds very intense, and not very enjoyable. (Although, I need to get out of the habit of thinking about my food in terms of it being enjoyable or not. I mean, I want it to taste good, but I should be more focused on it's nutritional value.) I have never really cared for health shakes and such, so I am trying a few now, to get used to them.

Well, it is time for bed. I am getting up early tomorrow to go for a walk with my hunny. (I'm really excited he's going with me!) I also want to do some cleaning around the house.

Have a good night, everyone. 

<3
Nicole 

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