Missed Days 16, 17

Jan 07, 2011

Well, i have been in a little bit of a funk when it comes to blogging. I have been doing pretty well with the eating, I have been getting things done. I don't know why I haven't felt like blogging. Usually it's very cathartic, but I just haven't felt great about it.

I'm really sad about missing the support meetings. I was supposed to go yesterday, but I was supposed to go yesterday but I didn't have bus far. I was going to go to one today, but I would have had to take 4 buses to get home, and I didn't have fare for that. Carlos is going to take me to one on Thursday next week, but I just worry that something will happen and I won't get to go. I just have to keep my fingers crossed.

I am also really worried about money. My disability check still hasn't come and we are running on barely anything. I am extrmemly worried about having to pay our rent, and also paying for my insurance premium by Feb. If I don't pay it, I wont be able to have surgery. I know Carlos is really worried too. Maybe the worry is why I don't feel like blogging. I don't know.

I just wanted to come here and vent a little. I was looking forward to the support group for some venting, but I have to use what I have.

N.

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