Plateau! :(

Feb 14, 2010

Just when I hit the 100 lb mark, the plateau has begun. Ugh! And I really think it's self-sabotage. It's like I'm doing it subconsciously. Like deep inside I feel like I don't deserve to be thin. Well, I've got news for myself: I do! I deserve to be thin and I deserve to be healthy. I owe it to myself. I think I've been sneaking in the extra calories and eating when I should be drinking water. Just my thoughts. I need to start keeping my food journal again. Where's that kick in the butt when I really need it?

I'd love to blame it on stress, a too-tight band, illness, anything besides what it really is. But I can't! It just isn't true. I've been allowing in items in my daily food intake that just shouldn't be, and I know this. I've been getting bored and eating slider foods because I know they will go. I really need to be smacked for this crap. This is how I got into this mess to begin with!! WTH!!! I get so fed up with myself. I didn't even want to blog this, but I had to put it out there and be honest with myself. I should always be proud of what I eat, not ever ashamed. If I'm ashamed that I'm eating something, I've got no business putting it in my mouth. Simple as that.

I'm angry with myself. Angry and disgusted.

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