pandababy52
Getting through the Holiday!!!
Dec 24, 2010
The holidays are hard not only for the fact that you never feel there is enough money to help all those that you want to but also for us its hard cause we watch out families indulge in such fattening, sweet and the amount is crazy... You think to your self I should have just a little but then if you do you feel guilty. Do we want to feel guilty about what we eat, no. Do we want to watch our families grow larger as we grow smaller. The funny thing about this is that no matter how much you plead no one listens. They always ask if you want seconds and if you bring healthy food with you they act like you are trying to make a statement and try and change them to.I am fortunate that my loved ones will make low fat foods and change things a little. I had surgery this time two years ago and while my family and friends ate food I had to watch them do so while I drank broth and protien. This was not easy and I spent a good portion of my time in the bathroom crying. The funny part was is that I was not hungary but I was still feeling left out. I hated it but knew deep inside that it would be worth it. I knew that the following holiday I would look awesome and feel great and it also helped me realize that the holiday is not about the food it is about the people you spend it with. The family.. Watching the kids with excitment opening their presents...
My nephew looked at my mom the other day and told her "Nana do you remember your fat daughter, I am sorry that she died." My mom was sad but she let him know that I did not die that it was me and that I lost weight so I could spend the rest of his life in his life... He was so happy to know that I didn't die but the funny thing is he didn't realize that it was me.....
Wow....
