pandababy52
Doing good
Mar 17, 2011
Well it is 6 days into lent and I have kept my vow. I am so feeling good and bad... I am feeling bad because I did gain weight. Alot of weight. I have gained about 17 pounds. I have to change my prospective and work harder towards the new me. I have to quit letting the little things upset me and look to the future. I had a talk with my husband the other day and we were discussing what the future has for us. I told him with school I have a couple routes to go but the problem comes that the one that is least expensive will leave us in AZ for another 4 and a half years. He was fine with it but I am not sure I am. I know that my education means the world to me and that if I don't finish it will just be another thing I let go. I let go of too much and it really gets me down. I can not let this go. It may not be my dream job but it is a field in which I am happy and have learned to do very well. Nursing is for people who are compationate and love to help people. I am one of those people and feel that I will do very well at it and plan to finish. I am scared. Of what you ask. I am scared of being responsible for others. Scared that I will do something wrong and in nursing doing just the smallest thing wrong could kill a person... I don't want to ever do that but I know that people die everyday and sometimes we can not change that....I will continue to work on my eating and get my weight down to my goal. I need to make little goals for myself that are not hard to attain and stop looking at myself in disgust. I need to work out more and take care of me... I am the important one...
Today is a new day and I will hit it head on....