What IF...?!

Jul 10, 2014

This post is inspired from sharing a few of my thoughts to a friend on here in a PM. 

I am worried sick. I am panicky, honestly. I did the liver shrink diet for months. Then my doctor told me I could stop until... yesterday. Now, I am back on it. WHAT IF MY LIVER DIDN'T/DOESN'T shrink enough? What if she starts and stops because my liver is too big and fatty? Will I lose all of the money I paid for surgery since I am self-pay? Does it mean I am not a good candidate for surgery? I am so close to receiving the help I need and am terrified it will slip through my fingers. 

Before anyone starts posting negative replies.. I am not cheating on this liver shrink diet. So, this post is not about me cheating and afraid of the consequences. I am genuinely scared my liver is a wreck and won't cooperate. :( 

That would be the most embarrassing thing.. to wake up and have to tell family and friends why the surgery was not done. :(

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