I go from scared to confident to scared...

Jul 02, 2014

I want to succeed. I am SO afraid of failure. One minute I am completely confident that I will beat the curse of super-duper-over-the-top-crazy-embarrasing morbidly morbid obesity. (Yep, that's is now a new category. Lol) And then other times, I find myself, without thinking, reaching into a bag of chips my roommate is holding. I have to stop, drop the chips, and mentally redirect myself. Sometimes I do this without a second thought and others I think, "is this a sign I am going to fail?"

I refuse to fail. Refuse. No way. I WILL SUCCEED.

I just wish cognitively my unconscious was on the same page.

My Dad said to me a month or so ago, "If this doesn't work for you, then nothing will." That is the moment self-doubt crept into my mind. He was not saying it maliciously; he is just concerned.

My surgery date was set for July 24 but today the office called and reported that it has been changed to July 23. YES!! I WILL TAKE THAT 1 EXTRA DAY SOONER! hehe ;)

8 Comments