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Home and glad to be here!  I feel amazing to have just had surgery 4 days ago.  I'm drinking water, bullion, eating jello, and trying to get protien bullets down.  Looks like i've lost 9 lbs since I left home on last Monday.  I'm stoked!!!

So, here I am...in Eagle Pass, TX waiting for surgery tomorrow.  I'm watching tv, surfing the web, not eating.....waiting....I'm just ready for it to be over!!  Looking forward to my new life, but would like to skip this part!  I saw a patient today who had surgery on Monday.  She looked great!  That was encouraging.  I hope that's me in a few days.  I'll be back on as soon as possible.  Maybe then I can encourage some of you still waiting!!!

So...one week from today I'll be in Mexico!  I think I'm ready for this.  Emotionally, I really can't sort out what I'm feeling.  Scared?  Yes.  Excited? Definantly.  Worried about the after affects?  I guess that's the worst.  I hate nausea.  I'm alittle worritd about possible side affects after the surgery.  I've read post about people who had nausea for a couple of  months.  That doesn't sound like fun at all.  I'm praying I'll be one of the ones who comes through with no kind of complications.  I'm not a wimp.  I have a pretty high tolorence for pain, but nausea....not so much.
  I hate the idea of being gone from my kids for so long.  But I know that in the long run, this is for them as much as it is for me.  My little ones, God willing, will hardly remember me being fat.  Although now, they aren't sure about me losing weight.  They know me as I am and always have been.  I know that will pass with time. 

Life as I  know it is about to change.  I know it sounds corny, but I feel like a caterpiller, soon to be a butterfly.  The same creature, only  in a different form.  I am sooo thankful I have family who have never put me down or made me feel "less than" because of my weight.  On the other hand, my concept of  myself was and is terrible.  I believe that will change as my body changes.  Life is ment to be lived...to the fullest.  We only have one.  That is why I'm doing this....here we go....

I have a surgery date!  Jan. 7th with Dr. Alveraze in Mexico.   I'm a little apprehensive, but excited that my new life will be starting soon!  I just wish it was tomorrow!!