The Gift of the Struggle

Aug 06, 2015

I was 3.5 years out last month and I have regained almost 30lbs from my lowest weight.  I am still in my healthy BMI, but my food addiction rages on.  The struggle is real...and reality is really setting in.  Now I need to ask myself, "what am I willing to do everyday for the rest of my life to maintain my weight loss?"  It is humbling to face the full weight of the truth...we are each personally responsible for practicing the best lifestyle habits that we can (diet and exercise) in order to keep the weight off.

I am struggling with junk foods sneaking into my diet, binge eating and compulsive overeating.  Food always seems like the answer to me, no matter what the question is.  I have come to realize that the path of out of my food addiction really is spiritual growth, more self knowledge, a plan of action and the very challenging task of acting and thinking differently in the moment, today.  Staying focused on the present day is also completely important.  I can waste hours in my head with wrenching self reproach and negative judgements about what I ate YESTERDAY!  But this is simply squandering the joy from today and my focus on making good choices in this moment. 

The gift of the struggle is that my relationship with food, body image and weight preoccupation are forcing me to grow spiritually, to become more compassionate, to let go of things that I can't control, to live less by fear and more by joy, to find peace in the simple act of making the next right choice.

Live well today.  Repeat tomorrow.

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