A brighter outlook

Dec 14, 2011

Well I went back and read my previous post. I feel like a totally different person wrote it. Life still kind of sucks. Though my surgery has nothing to do with any of it. My weightloss is still slow but it's continueing. As of this post I am at 322. Just last night my buddy and I got our gym passes back and we walked on the treadmills there. I like their treadmills better, they seem sturdier. We will also be swimming once we both find our suites.
I am getting my vitamins in, though I am having to experiment with how many I can take at a time as my pouch is very tempermental. My Effexor is very hard on me as well. I didn't take it for nearly a month and now I'ts making me super sick when I take it. It sucks to have to take it twice a day. Though I did try to coat my pouch before taking it this morning and it seemed a lot more gentle. I didn't have any yogurt which was my first choice but apple sauce seemed to work.
I seriously don't like the chewable vitamins, they are very yucky.
I've been getting my vit K shots for 2 months now. Those are simple, I just always complain to my husband that it's pink. I for some reason don;t like the idea of a colored substance going into me. This coming from a woman who loves the idea of tattoos. Which btw I am 22 pounds away from getting my first one colored. I got a tattoo of my own design put on my left forearm around May of last year. I only did the line art (black lines). I told myself once I was below 300 I would get it colored. I am almost there.
I went back to sparkpeople.com and saw they still have my old measurements. I want to get my measurments tonight to see just how much has changed. In my mind I am still just as big. Though there are some clues I have gotten smaller. Seatbelts are easier to put on. Clothes fit better, or just plain fit, such as a brown suede coat Kevin bought for me a couple years ago. When he got it it absolutly would not close around me. Now I have some space even when it is buttoned. I feel like I got a brand new coat. Unfortuantly this means the coat I bought that fit me now is huge on me. ohwell, unless it completly falls off, it's still my winter coat.
One thing that doesnt make much sense is that I feel more boney. I obviously don't look boney but I can feel them much easier.
I am slowly getting my life back in order. IN a very big way I feel like the surgery "broke" me. I haven't really been myself since. But now I am getting back into doing art and becoming a much more involved person in my family.

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