I'm scared ... but not for the reasons you think ...

Aug 11, 2011

It feels like my mom has put out a bulletin back home because all of my aunts are calling me to discuss my upcoming surgery. Today one of my aunts called me and asked if I was scared I told her YES ... but I think she was surprised to learn I wasn't scared for the same reasons she thought I should be. This is what I'm scared of going into my VSG journey ...

- Scared that it won't work for me
- Scared that I will have hideous loose skin on my stomach
- Scared that I will exercise insessently to combat the loose skin which will mean I need to eat more for energy which in   turn will make me not lose weight ... ie it won't work
- Scared that I won't exercise in an attempt to not have to eat more for energy and I will have loose skin ....
- I'm soooo scared that my stomach will look like a bucket of chitterlings ...

So once I told my aunt that she laughed and said well ... it's good to hear you're not scared about the surgery. lol

I KNOW this is the best decision for me ... I'm just scared because I've wanted this fat gone for SOOOOOO long! It's hard to believe that this time ... it's REALLY going to happen. I'm just scared that ... I will wake up and be the person this surgery didn't work for. Then I will still be fat like me.

Trying to think HAPPY thoughts!! However ... the closer it gets to surgery day the more I worry ... "what if it doesn't work"?

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