I am in need of a check up - from the neck up - I am out of control. Mac & cheese, chocolate left & right, chips of all kinds - sweet tea 24 -7. I now drink after I eat to get rid of the full feeling cause emotionally & visually I want to fill the void of too much STRESS in my life!

I scheduled an appointment with my Dr. for Thursday. I hope I have not done any damage to myself or my band. I am being 100% transparent & it feels like a burden I can just thrust onto a page & put the UGLY truth in writing. It hurts that stupid lack of self discipline on my part can make my self worth be so effected. Food / bad choices shouldn't have that kind of control over the way I feel but it dose. It really makes me mad that it has been 2 years & I keep falling back on the same old couping mechanism's that put me in need of the Lap-Band to begin with. On a positive note for mothers day I bought a elliptical machine - I should get it in 2 weeks. I will conquer the bad habits. I have a plan & i will win this battle of stress relief transfer.

one day weight won't be an issue - heehee.

 
  What Decade Fits Your Personality Best? Christy took the "What Decade Fits Your Personality Best?" quiz and the result is 1940's. You are the ultimate romantic at heart. You put a high priority on true love, patriotism, and dedication to honor and duty. Whether it be serving your country or serving your family, you have a very hard work-ethic balanced out by your whimsical, dreamy heart. You are w...illing to take risks, go where no one has gone before, and you have a sense of pride in everything you do. Just as you are in touch with your inner beauty, you also give just the right amount of focus on your outer beauty-- standing out with the latest fashions and getting in touch with your sensual side. Your sexiness is not scandalous but rather classy and poised. You are the envy of those around you because no matter how much tough work you have to do, you keep a smile and look good while doing it.

210 - 144 lbs  Happy the weight has come off. It hasn't been easy but it HAS been WORTH IT!

I can't wait to hit the 125 marker. That will be a dream come true! Hope for some beautiful weather to kick me back into full gear of wl mode. Enjoy the rest of your day everyone! Congrats to Harriet she just hit her 2 year marker & is now a size 6. Awesome job doll!

1 more lb & hit a goal!!!!

I am gonig on vacation next week & had to try on a bathing suit. My mother in law gave me one 2 wks ago & hadn't tried it on till today. The awesome surprise was it was a wonderful fit. The clencher was it was a size 8-10. I almost cried because it was such a WONDERFUL surprise! I so needed that I am still struggling with feeling like the Big Girl on the inside. It is the craziest thing, but I know it's old self esteem issues I just need to get past! I will & it is a process that I am working through. I have good days that I feel like am a child of The High God & I look & feel great about myself. Then their are days that all I can see are my flaws that still haunt my memories of being overweight & not good enough. I am on the road to recreation & it has it's peaks & valleys. It's is a road that will have a Nice ending!!! I love the Me I am becoming & look forward to the future me. Till I write again ....Have a good one!

yeehaww!!!!

Now onward - 25 more on my journey! I can do All things through CHRIST who strengthens me!!!

 3 lbs from where I left off when I was on track. Thanks be to God!

Down to 156.0 Happy day's are here again!!!

woo-hoo!

I am up to the 3 mile mark with my sister . We have been walking together for the past 5 weeks & we are both down exactly 8 lbs for the month. I am so proud of us! I want to be down 20lbs by Christmas 2010. I am fitting in size 12's which is awesome! I haven't been in a 12 since 1999. It feels great being back in control of something that has been so OUT of Control for so many years. I still have a way to go but the fact is I am moving forward & not going backwards. That is a feet in it's self!  Until next time - good health & much wealth

159.2 WOOHOO out  of the 160's.

breakfast - 1 egg
lunch- salad chicken
dinner grilled fajitas , black beans 3 spoons of rice
snack- apple & yogurt

5 glasses of water
2 iced teas

I have been walking with my neighbor & we are up to 2 miles 4 days a week. She helps keep me in check & I do the same for her. I am down to 161 as of this morning. My goal is to be back to the 154 by the middle of August. I think I can do it my mind set is back to doing good for my body & that was the big battle. Crazy how that candy bar or cookie can really run a persons life. Oh well I'm ready to shed the old me & see the thinner me.  Hope everyone is well ... untill we chat again enjoy the rest of your day!

still up 10 lbs -
Just started walking again - 1 1/2 miles yesterday. I will just keep up the walking & watch the junk intake and I know I will get back to 153. Hope everyone is well. Ta Ta

Well...I am scheduled for a fill on April 23rd.
I can eat a lot more than I should be able to & my self control is not where it should be at, so.. I will be utilizing my Lap band tool by fillin up! 

enjoying the new me.
life is good...
all is well..
thanks be to God

Hope everyone had a great holiday season.
Been really busy - I am happy things are all over though, it was fun but ready to get this New Year started!
The wedding was beautiful & Christmas was great !
Looking forward to what this year has to offer. I'm looking for a couple of new sizes this year.
Goal hit size 10! That's the BIG GOAL for myself by the end of the year.
In 2007 Christmas I was a size 24 .
In 2008 Christmas I was a size 14.
In 2009 Christmas I will be a size 10.
I'm not gonna beat myself up to get there but I will get there!

Hugs to my friends chat with you all soon,

Yeah baby!

Just did a fitting for my sister's wedding & my dress Rocks!

I'm excited it looks good!

Woohoo - I got to meet Faith Thomas face to face.
Faith is even more beautiful in person. We had a blast - I'll update more a little later. I got to meet Brenda she was a doll - sweet & good sense of humor. We found some things in common with the band, It's nice to know we have a place to go to share the "band experience" with. Great information & nice fellowship! Thanks ladies....

Peace out

According to laws,  the bumblebee cannot fly.  Its body weight is not the right proportion to its wingspan.  Ignoring these laws, the bee flies anyway.
     - M. Sainte-Lague

A wonderful lesson of self will! 

Here's to doing the impossible and becoming all God wants us to be.

Cheers my friends!