Wren1965
Back to the real world
Apr 05, 2013
I go back to work tomorrow after having 4 weeks off following RNY surgery, and I'm nervous.
I work with about 150 other people. I don't see half of them most of the time, because we all work rotating shifts. I do, however see the other half, every day. Now, I've only told about a dozen people that I was having the surgery. Almost everybody else realizes that I have been away and that I had surgery, but not what the surgery was.
So, anyway, the reason(s) that I'm nervous.... The people that know about the RNY might be expecting too much, expecting a big "reveal", when in reality, the loss I've had so far, 46 pounds, while remarkable, is just a drop in the bucket. I have at least three times that amount left to lose. And so there really isn't that big a difference in my appearance. I don't want them to be disappointed.
Conversely, I'm worried that the people that I didn't tell *will* notice a big difference and start asking questions about what surgery I really did have done. I'm feeling sort of like I have a split personality on the whole. Worried that people will see a difference and worried that they won't.
Well, no point in fretting about it. Tomorrow at 4pm the truth will be there.