Back to the real world

Apr 05, 2013

I go back to work tomorrow after having 4 weeks off following RNY surgery, and I'm nervous.

I work with about 150 other people.  I don't see half of them most of the time, because we all work rotating shifts.  I do, however see the other half, every day.   Now, I've only told about a dozen people that I was having the surgery.  Almost everybody else realizes that I have been away and that I had surgery, but not what the surgery was. 

So, anyway, the reason(s) that I'm nervous.... The people that know about the RNY might be expecting too much, expecting a big "reveal",  when in reality, the loss I've had so far, 46 pounds, while remarkable, is just a drop in the bucket.  I have at least three times that amount left to lose.  And so there really isn't that big a difference in my appearance.  I don't want them to be disappointed.  

Conversely, I'm worried that the people that I didn't tell *will* notice a big difference and start asking questions about what surgery I really did have done.  I'm feeling sort of like I have a split personality on the whole.  Worried that people will see a difference and worried that they won't.  

Well, no point in fretting about it.  Tomorrow at 4pm the truth will be there.  

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