collins.123
I'm 38 years old and have two beautiful girls ages 17 and 12.I'm a sigle Mom and it's difficult at times,but I have good family support.I had a boyfrined for 4 years, but it was always off and on and it just got to be to much work at least for him I guess.I was married for 15 years and after having my first child ballooned up to 212 lbs(I was 109lbs before the baby).I lost some of the weight but struggled and tried every diet and even prescription medication from my DR.Then came baby #2.Oh boy look out then came more weight.I had gotten down to 172 and was feeling much better...then the news unexpected I might add....weight got up to 230..more dieting and could not lose the weight.Then was diagnosis with hypothyroidism(a diaease that slows down the metabolism)as a Registered Nurse I knew exactly what that meant...more struggles with my weight.Through all of this my husband was not very supportive and always made comments about my weight and how beautiful I was before I had the kids.Needless to say the marriage ended..and my self esteem plummeted.I had always been a popular girl in High School and College..cheerleader and athletic(no not the stuck up one that was mean either),I was raised to appreciate everything people have to offer and that everyone has something good to offer(thanks Mom and Dad).I've been single except for a couple of boyfriends since my divorce(one guy was bodybulider...go figure the odds on that),boy was he really attractive and he's still a good friend.He was the one who mentioned the Lap-Band surgery for me he has been very concerned with my health and has said he'd be there through it all...we talk almost everyday.The last boyfriend met me(the one I mentioned earlier) when I had lost 45 lbs and was feeling much better about myself...but I started gaining the weight back again..he always said it counts whats on the inside not on the outside and he loved me for who I was....so I'm not sure if it ended because of my weight or not he just didn't want to work that hard anymore...plus he messed around with one of my best friends and that really hurt(just found out about that last October)man that was so hard...I blamed it on my weight...but I know there's more.Well it's a new year so...the good news is my insurance company approve me and now I'm waiting on a date.It can't come soon enough...I have good and bad days I just want to be the person on the outside as I am on the inside..thank goodness I have a sense of humor no one could be overweight and not have a sense of humor.Well keep watching.I'm not good at this computer stuff so I'll do my best to get some pictures posted.Wish me luck all the prayers are welcomed:)
