Well my 6 month surgiversary has come and gone.  It was actually on the 15th and I totally forgot about it.  I am hoping to be in onderland.  I have been struggling for the past month or so with making healthy food choices.  I am finding work incredibly stressful.  I am in charge of the whole hospital, with whatever issue comes my way, and there are lots.  My manager is back on Monday, praise the Lord.  I am eating more on the run, which tends to be more carby foods.  These past two days I am really trying to grab protein foods instead.  It is a struggle. I need to be in the moment and not let the stress get me into that "just exist" fog.   I believe that this has been an ongoing problem for me during the past 20 years of this ever so self sacrificing career.  I have acknowledged this for many years, but can't seem to change.  I am really putting the conscious effort into putting my health and well being ahead of my career.  I only pray I will succeed, because this is the number one reason for my weight problem (there are other reasons too), and I will not be going down that road again.  I have to thank everyone in our group who has been a tremendous inspiration and support to me during this journey.  You are all the best!!!!