H2OK
Momentum
Feb 08, 2016
Something clicked today. Finally.
I have been in a feedback loop for a couple months. Funny how that word sounds like a swear word here... "feedback"
Nothing seemed to be able to snap me into a state of awareness that I was gaining back some weight that I have worked so hard to drop previously.
Could it have been the act of signing up for this site and "going public"? Perhaps... Whatever it is, I will take it. Momentum has been my problem from day 1 - I never seem to reach that place where the momentum of my success in weightloss can overtake the desire to mess it all up. I have a very predictable pattern that I am working hard to break. I realize from spending time reading other people's brave journeys and knowing with a degree of common sense, that this surgery is only a tool - that there is a warehouse full of life changes I need to start buying into or this whole thing has a good chance of failing. I can't afford that. Not now.
I went for a walk today. 4km. Last time I did this was November. The next time I do it... needs to be tomorrow. It doesn't have to be 4km... it just needs to be a walk that I conciously decide to do. I can already sense the "seed" being placed in my head that is telling me I don;t have time to go for a walk tomorrow because of work... That old pattern is strong and persuasive, but I am in a really good place today, and I need to draw whatever energy I can from this momentum, albeit a SINGLE-GOOD-DAY's worth of momentum... It's still gotta help a bit.
Momentum. Momentum. Momentum. Momentum...