Cathy A.
There was a time when I would have said I was heavy all my life. That has been my perception.. But I look back at my photos as a child and teenager , I was not overweight.. My mother was always putting me on a diet since I was 13 years old.. It was during the time of Twiggy and mini skirts.. I think everyone's perception of the perfect body was a little distorted back then..
It was really after I had my first child that I really started battleing my weight. After my second child I gained to 225 pounds.. My first husband started having a wandering eye... I thought if I lost my weight I would win him back to me.. so I began my first destructive diet.. On monday I would start fasting I wld not eat anything that week until I lost 5 pounds. When I lost that five pounds then I would eat only dinner and very little until the next monday.. and I would start again .. I lost 75 pounds that way in a very short amount of time .. I kept it off for two almost 3 years by only eating one meal a day .. and I gave myself a five pound leeway .. If I gained 5 pounds I wld fast until I lost it.. The Irony of this was when I found out who my dh was cheating on me with .. She was over 300 pounds I finally came to my senses and got rid of him..
What man meant for ill God turn to my good... I met my wonderful loving supportive husband I have now .. MY ROCK.. I had my 3rd son .. and regained all the weight I had lost. All through our married life, 26 years now, I have gone up and down. Then about 7 years ago I went on my second (doomed to fail) diet I ate 600 calories a day walked 5 miles a day plus play racquetball for one hour I lot 67 pounds .. Kept it off one year .. Had a hysterectomy and my weight rushed back to me like it missed me or something.. my highest weight was 284 . Everytime I saw that 300 looming ,I would panic and start dieting... I have alot of will power but only for so long as my body would rebel and when you start starving from lack of proper nutrition the craving to eat kicks in..
Three years ago...I went to a neurologist with some spinal issues.. instead of trying to diagnose my degenerative disks issue .. He told me that I needed to go to a bariatric surgeon and have gastric bypass... I was furious, insulted and embarassed .. I promptly left his office thought about it all night.. the next morning I called my bank and stopped payment on my check for the co payment to see him.. I felt that he didnt treat me for what I went to see him.. and insulted me instead... Now I am considering sending him the 20.00 now because he was probably right in what he said..
I have diabetes and have had for several years .. my meds are starting not to work for me anymore.. I give my shots now because of this.. I narrowly escaped having a major heart attack my (widowmaker) artery was 99.9 percent closed .. I had two stents put in it.. (God showed me in a dream 3 of them in fact one after another where I died or nearly died) thank the Lord I listened . I had been having shortness of breath and some pain in my chest so I went to the cardiologist. had a stress test and was sent for an angiogram.. and God was right as usual I was a time bomb .. Thank you Jesus... I caught it before I had a heart attack so no damage done..
I have tried several times to lose weight since then but I just can t seem to find that will power anymore I dont have the energy to exercise like I used to I do walk but I cant seem to build up to the amount I use to walk.. I had a stress test this last January and an angiogram and everything is really good My cholestrol is 155 my triglicerides are a little high The doctor said it is due to being diabetic. I eat very healthy I just eat too much I think... But back to the test in Jan ... He wrote in big letter across my chart .. MORBIDLY OBESE... that really hit home.. I went home ashamed of myself .. I prayed about it and talked to my dh.. about it and called the next day to make an appt with Dr. Hall . My DH went with me. Dr Hall explained everything very clearly and in great detail.. My DH Gary and I decided to go throughwith it if my insurance approves .. Now it is in God's hands..
