Abbie_c
Well where do I begin... You know I can still to this day remember some of the terrible things people used to say to me as a fat kid growing up in a small town. I have seen pictures of me when I was 7 and I was thin but, only one time do I remember myself being thin and that was when I was 16years old... NOT shockingly people still called me fat....and to further the "FAT COMPLEX" I had, I remember feeling like I was the fattest of all my friends (I was) and that my worth was somewhat less than others who were thin...Believe it or not my goal weight now is the weight I was at when I was 16yrs old....Shortly after this and a bout of depression, I reached 195 then 200.... I remember getting on the scale and telling myself ok I wont let it get over 205...210...220... and climbing it still went... I never knew how to lose or how to eat right and my mother certainly did nothing to help the situation, struggling with her own weight issues.... she got thin by not eating and using Phen-fen, but never shared the secret.... Finally I got out of the teen yeas and met the man I married, after a long chase and familial clash we had our daughter. I weighed 223 when I got prego, at the end I weighed 281... I struggled, I hated it, I lothed myself, and one day at age 23 I woke up and said If I dont do something now about my back hurting, and sloppy yuck that was me, I am going to kill myself..........SOOO..I called dr.s I talked to pharmacists........I went to Weight Watchers... I lost weight.....I got back down to pre baby weight 227.....Then got pregnant again, and the cycle never ends. At least this time I was so fit and muscles tight and toned, I didn't look 227 and didn't feel 227, more like 180....it showed and people let me know....I looked good....but it took 4 years of working out 6days a week 1.5-2hours a day and eating only chicken and raw foods to do it....I AM NOT KIDDING I SWEAR In the process I have trashed my knees!! Nonethe less I love to work out, but the slump I am in after my sons birth (2006) leaves me disgusted. Now at 295 the absloute BIGGEST I have ever been in my life I have chosen to undergo R&Y Gastric Bypass surgery... Watch me transform, back to the weights I have been previously....
