The many valleys

Aug 08, 2014

First off, thank you to my readers :) Your support is incredible!

My last suture healed about 2 weeks ago, then a car accident on July 29th has left my husband and I in pain (no yoga right now). However, being diligent in eating and walking, I'm still losing and an officially down 90lbs since I started this journey in February.

The car accident has surprisingly done one thing I didn't expect: my anxiety levels have gone down. I guess knowing the worst case scenarios, I know we're alive. We may not have a car anymore, have to bus it everywhere (more walking though, yay!) and have physio for a bit, we're alive. I continue to loss weight, I am healthier as each day passes. My husband is still with me. If that guy had aimed differently...but he didn't.

It's amazing that in this journey of losing weight, different things change in not only attitude toward ourselves, but in the rest of life. I am on a journey with hills and valleys and right now I am in a valley after the steep hill of that accident. I'm getting healing and comfort from so many people in my life, and I'm still remembering that I need to make sure and keep on the "healing" of this weight loss. To see the changes in my mental and physical well being. I keep donating all of my bigger clothes, I have been given smaller clothes to help me through. 

Speaking of the donating bigger clothes, when going through my closet I've allowed myself to try on the smaller clothes and allow myself to look at my shape. I have never done that. The natural curves (and some of the bulky ones that are shrinking), the way the fabric feels, and do a little twirl when I have a dress on. My husband just smiles watching me.

I had a shirt on this week that fit me and asked him how I looked. He liked the shirt, but has been so used to me hiding in larger clothes (and not being able to keep up with myself shrinking), he didn't know what to think. But then he admitted, I do look good and didn't want others to pay attention, lol! That made me feel amazing! I still have so much weight to take off, but I feel attractive and sexy.

I hope this valley stays awhile, I really need it.

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