Barbarajean1954
I have been on some kind of diet off and on all my life it seems, to the point I finally after about 30 years came to accept my weight and learned to love myself for me. Doctor's game me diet pills when I was younger which made me hyper. About the only diets which worked were ones that were high in Protein and low in carbs. But then during a stress-full time in my life I developed a duodenal ulcer (diet for this is not good for weight loss..lol). But weight kind of leveled off during college years. Then I lost again after graduation from college and starting work. My life has been a constant see-saw of weight loss. Up and Down. But unfortunately after every down the up was always higher
. So acceptance seemed to be the best way to deal with the problem and since my life was already so stressful with 2 sick parents and my health failing, I did not need any more stress.
Then two years after my parents passed on I met my future husband, Steve. We have been together for over 6 years and married for over a year now. He is a wonderful man and very supportive. I had my first hip surgery just a few months after he moved here and my worst fear was he would leave me, even thought he kept telling me he wasn't going to leave me. The good thing is he loves me for me, because I'm fat or skinny. He says it's what is on the inside not the outside that makes him love me.
I am seeing my Doctor for the first time next Wednesday (1/28/09). Not sure when we will schedule the Lap-Band Surgery since I am having Arthroscopic surgery on my right shoulder on the 4th (it can't wait).
The main thing is I want my life back. Losing weight will help me with that. I need hip surgery for one thing, losing weight will make that go better. I want to be able to walk again without hurting and not being able to breath. I want to walk with my husband and be able to go to the beach and swim and do all the things I used to be able to do.
I want to walk my new puppy when I get her. Something I was never able to do with my Prissy and Chester (whom we just lost). Just being able to walk across the Wal-Mart will be a major accomplishment.
I know it won't be easy and will be a hard job but it will be worth it.
