bbwvixen
wow! five years later!
May 23, 2015
I can't believe it's actually been that long! Things totally fell apart when my dad died in 2011. A week prior I had hernia surgery and got 13 staples. A combination of the physical and emotional, led me back down that dark path, to which I haven't recovered yet. My mom died March 2014 and my only living immediate family is my brother, who has threatened me and emotionally and verbally abused me.
I am still in school full time (still trying to finish my Community Social Worker Program) and a year late. I keep trying to finish it, but shit keeps happening. I go back and forth between being determined to loose the 60lbs I've gained and get healthy again, to punishing myself and not giving a crap, so I binge eat and don't exercise.
Damn I wish I could do a do over! First thing I would do is NOT to touch ANY sugar!!! I don't dump! It went from only 1tbs will satisfy me, to now I can eat half the pie, a whole chocolate bar, etc
I can go all day without eating (I sleep late) or can't eat (feel nausea) and then I get hunger y at night! Bad thing!
well this is short and sweet today!
14 months out
Jul 16, 2011
Well stress is my middle name. I've been so involved with helping to take care of my dad, that I ended up loosing my job. He almost died in my arms at Xmas, and the family went up to see him on Father's Day (they live 400 miles away). The next weekend he was gone. I am totally devestated and still in denial.
I'm going through periods where I don't want to eat at all, or where I stuff myself. I've leveled out at 160lbs give or take a few pounds each way. I want to reach 150 but right now I'm so weary with all the stress and grief, it's all I can do to get out of bed.
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I'm going through periods where I don't want to eat at all, or where I stuff myself. I've leveled out at 160lbs give or take a few pounds each way. I want to reach 150 but right now I'm so weary with all the stress and grief, it's all I can do to get out of bed.
Nine months later
Feb 19, 2011
I can't beleive how surreal everything is and has been. I'm now down to 161 and a size 10/12. It's so amazing being able to go into almost any store and picking something out. I do find some of the modern stores still size pretty small, but still .... :)
I've started going to Curves three times a week and walking the dogs alot more. Well at lease until about ten days ago, where I got REALLY sick. This is the first time I've been this sick since I had the blood clots 2+ years ago! At lease today I can breathe through my nose which really helps. It's nice and sunny although cold as heck, but I still took the dogs for a walk. I've pretty much managed to stay indoors the last week with being sick.
Food wise, I can eat anything and don't dump :(( I really wanted to have that slap on the wrist, but no go. There's no food that I can't eat, and yes, I still eat stuff that I'm not suppose to, but I try to eat only a few bites.
I'm seeing my surgeon on the 3ed of March. My hernia seems to have doubled in size, or else it's just easier to see as my waist doesn't have as much fat! lol, I've been advised the wait for surgery in Victoria is 2-3 months, where here on the lower mainland, I can't even SEE a specialist until April or May.
I'm going back to school in September, so I want to get this all out of the way by then and then be able to go to school with hopefully no problems lol.
Alot of people talk about changes in relationships with the SO once they've had surgery, and I've seen it alot in my friends. I can honestly say that my relationship with my DH hasn't changed a bit. I lucked out with having such a wonderful supporting husband who's been with me every step of the way anyways. He said he loves ME and doesn't care how much I weight, but rather that I'm healthy and happy.
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I've started going to Curves three times a week and walking the dogs alot more. Well at lease until about ten days ago, where I got REALLY sick. This is the first time I've been this sick since I had the blood clots 2+ years ago! At lease today I can breathe through my nose which really helps. It's nice and sunny although cold as heck, but I still took the dogs for a walk. I've pretty much managed to stay indoors the last week with being sick.
Food wise, I can eat anything and don't dump :(( I really wanted to have that slap on the wrist, but no go. There's no food that I can't eat, and yes, I still eat stuff that I'm not suppose to, but I try to eat only a few bites.
I'm seeing my surgeon on the 3ed of March. My hernia seems to have doubled in size, or else it's just easier to see as my waist doesn't have as much fat! lol, I've been advised the wait for surgery in Victoria is 2-3 months, where here on the lower mainland, I can't even SEE a specialist until April or May.
I'm going back to school in September, so I want to get this all out of the way by then and then be able to go to school with hopefully no problems lol.
Alot of people talk about changes in relationships with the SO once they've had surgery, and I've seen it alot in my friends. I can honestly say that my relationship with my DH hasn't changed a bit. I lucked out with having such a wonderful supporting husband who's been with me every step of the way anyways. He said he loves ME and doesn't care how much I weight, but rather that I'm healthy and happy.
Six months post op
Nov 19, 2010
It snowed today and it's been so damn cold! Something I am NOT used to being!!! I'm at 172 and have stayed that way for a bit, it doesn't help that I've been so stressed that I haven't had much time for much of anything. (Including work)
Both my parents were in the hospital Halloween week and then we came home and I walked downstairs to someone in my living room who had broken in!!!
Dad was released from the hospital first, then mom, but dad was back in about four days later and in ICU where he's spent 8 days. He got transferred to the ward 2 days ago and will be there til early next week.
I haven't been to work in over week (I think - I've lost all track of time) and eating has been alot on the go and fast food. (Usually a grilled burger or chicken). I've found that I'm starting to stress eat much more, which is soooooooo not good, but I also can't eat as much as I used to, so that's good.
Before my parents were in the hospital, I had upped my protein to two shakes a day, the first as breakfast and then as a snack. With the cold weather, I've been so hungry :( and not working out.
My husband goes back to work on Monday, but graveyards, so now that more money will be coming in, I'm going to *try* this plus size boot camp that has started up, I know I need to do something to get out of the stall again.
Oh, those size 14 Wal Mart jeans are falling off. Went to get another pair and skipped size 12 and went right to a size 10!!!!
I haven't been shopping since but my other size 14 jeans still fit, although a bit baggy at the butt and thighs!
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Both my parents were in the hospital Halloween week and then we came home and I walked downstairs to someone in my living room who had broken in!!!
Dad was released from the hospital first, then mom, but dad was back in about four days later and in ICU where he's spent 8 days. He got transferred to the ward 2 days ago and will be there til early next week.
I haven't been to work in over week (I think - I've lost all track of time) and eating has been alot on the go and fast food. (Usually a grilled burger or chicken). I've found that I'm starting to stress eat much more, which is soooooooo not good, but I also can't eat as much as I used to, so that's good.
Before my parents were in the hospital, I had upped my protein to two shakes a day, the first as breakfast and then as a snack. With the cold weather, I've been so hungry :( and not working out.
My husband goes back to work on Monday, but graveyards, so now that more money will be coming in, I'm going to *try* this plus size boot camp that has started up, I know I need to do something to get out of the stall again.
Oh, those size 14 Wal Mart jeans are falling off. Went to get another pair and skipped size 12 and went right to a size 10!!!!
I haven't been shopping since but my other size 14 jeans still fit, although a bit baggy at the butt and thighs!Four months post op
Sep 14, 2010
About two weeks ago, my son and I were in Wal Mart and I picked up a pair of size 14 jeans. I looked at them, then down at myself and though "uh uh, no way!" but thru them in the cart anyways. My attitude now is that if they don't fit me now, they'll fit me in a few weeks. I got home and put them on, and the fit!!! 
I kept saying to my hubby, Holy Crap!!! I can't believe this!
So the pains in my side have gone away by about 99% of the time. I'm suffering from headaches and the usual back/neck pain. My massage therapist told me the more I loose the more my usual center of gravity is going to go, as my body's not used to it. Makes sense I guess, but can be a big pain!
I did the five day pouch diet last week.I really felt like I was getting out of control with my eating. I was hungry all the time and even though I was eating smaller meals, I was eating all the time it seemed and I was picking up some of my old bad habits, of eating junk food. It would now take me 3 days to finish a small bag of chips, or I'd have one and maybe a half of a peanut butter cup, but I felt I was taking two steps backwards.
Anyways it was much easier then I thought. I think it may have helped that I had a very nasty migraine and didn't feel like eating the first day. By then I was over the hump and the rest was easy. I lost four lbs right away, which I think was water retention because I went back up 2 lbs the next day and it's stayed. The important thing though is, that I'm not longer hungry - at all!!!! I'm back to forcing myself to eat, which is what I prefer!!!
I think I'm eating between 800-1200 calories a day. I'm not keeping track of all of my carbs/sugar/fat or heck anything, just trying to be more healthy. Yesterday for example, I had two small whole wheat pancakes, a small chicken Cesar salad, 1/2 clubhouse samwhich and a very small piece of pepperoni pizza. Usually I would have eaten three or four times that.
I work at six am, so I'm pretty useless for doing any activity on my days on, as I'm a zombie. On one of my days off, I try to go for a walk/hike in the park for 3-5 miles which always feels great, but other then working out with some free weights, I don't do much else. My bad!
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I kept saying to my hubby, Holy Crap!!! I can't believe this!So the pains in my side have gone away by about 99% of the time. I'm suffering from headaches and the usual back/neck pain. My massage therapist told me the more I loose the more my usual center of gravity is going to go, as my body's not used to it. Makes sense I guess, but can be a big pain!
I did the five day pouch diet last week.I really felt like I was getting out of control with my eating. I was hungry all the time and even though I was eating smaller meals, I was eating all the time it seemed and I was picking up some of my old bad habits, of eating junk food. It would now take me 3 days to finish a small bag of chips, or I'd have one and maybe a half of a peanut butter cup, but I felt I was taking two steps backwards.
Anyways it was much easier then I thought. I think it may have helped that I had a very nasty migraine and didn't feel like eating the first day. By then I was over the hump and the rest was easy. I lost four lbs right away, which I think was water retention because I went back up 2 lbs the next day and it's stayed. The important thing though is, that I'm not longer hungry - at all!!!! I'm back to forcing myself to eat, which is what I prefer!!!
I think I'm eating between 800-1200 calories a day. I'm not keeping track of all of my carbs/sugar/fat or heck anything, just trying to be more healthy. Yesterday for example, I had two small whole wheat pancakes, a small chicken Cesar salad, 1/2 clubhouse samwhich and a very small piece of pepperoni pizza. Usually I would have eaten three or four times that.
I work at six am, so I'm pretty useless for doing any activity on my days on, as I'm a zombie. On one of my days off, I try to go for a walk/hike in the park for 3-5 miles which always feels great, but other then working out with some free weights, I don't do much else. My bad!
Three months post op
Aug 05, 2010
I always find it kinda sad when I'm following someone's journey, and they have surgery and are never heard from again, or stop posting. I don't know if anyone is reading my blog, but I think it's only fair that I post as much after as I did before.
So I'm now 3 months post op. I've had some nasty stabbing pains in my left side along my hip and lower groin area. I looked at a diagram of the body and it's along the sigmond colon. It happens out of no where and can be quite painful but only lasts for a few seconds. I've been to ER, had a ultrasound, blood tests, xrays ect and nothing has show up. My GP said adhesions, but I think he's just taking a stab at it as he has no idea.
I seen Dr Malik last week, and he said he has no idea, but it's not anything to do with *his work* as he said lol The only thing he's concerned about is my vomitting about every 2 weeks. He wants me to do another endoscope :(
So, I've lost 47 lbs from my 2 week pre diet surgery, so that's 67lbs from my heaviest which was about two years ago I think. My clothing are starting to really hang and get baggy which as nice as it is, it can be quite annoying too.
I'm starting to buy some new clothing slowly, but it's hard when I know I'll shrink out of it within a few weeks. Too me it seems like I'm only losing about a pound, maybe a pound and a half a week, so not getting anywhere fast.
I'm in a size 16, maybe even a size 14 now. I actually bought two t shirts from Zellers last week in size L, although I haven't worn them yet. Don won't let me shop in the plus size section anymore lol
It's so strange going into *regular* stores and know I can buy things from the rack,and if they don't fit me now, they will next month :)
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So I'm now 3 months post op. I've had some nasty stabbing pains in my left side along my hip and lower groin area. I looked at a diagram of the body and it's along the sigmond colon. It happens out of no where and can be quite painful but only lasts for a few seconds. I've been to ER, had a ultrasound, blood tests, xrays ect and nothing has show up. My GP said adhesions, but I think he's just taking a stab at it as he has no idea.
I seen Dr Malik last week, and he said he has no idea, but it's not anything to do with *his work* as he said lol The only thing he's concerned about is my vomitting about every 2 weeks. He wants me to do another endoscope :(
So, I've lost 47 lbs from my 2 week pre diet surgery, so that's 67lbs from my heaviest which was about two years ago I think. My clothing are starting to really hang and get baggy which as nice as it is, it can be quite annoying too.
I'm starting to buy some new clothing slowly, but it's hard when I know I'll shrink out of it within a few weeks. Too me it seems like I'm only losing about a pound, maybe a pound and a half a week, so not getting anywhere fast.
I'm in a size 16, maybe even a size 14 now. I actually bought two t shirts from Zellers last week in size L, although I haven't worn them yet. Don won't let me shop in the plus size section anymore lol
It's so strange going into *regular* stores and know I can buy things from the rack,and if they don't fit me now, they will next month :)
Six weeks post op
Jun 17, 2010
It's now been six weeks and two days after my surgery. I'm just under losing 35lbs and am 1 lb from being the smallest I've been in 17+ years which was the day after I gave birth to my youngest son!!!! Holy Moly!
It's still pretty surreal to me. I'm still in a size 18 pants, yet they look as my husband says "like a flying squirral" when I pull the sides. Some are actually falling off, but I'm still not quite at a size 16.
I'm able to eat almost anything within reason. Just small amounts. Today I had a sliver of pepperoni pizza and was able to handle that just fine. I'm eating mostly chicken, fat free cheese, shrimp, and other meats or seafood. I still haven't dumped, but have thrown up four times after eating too much or even the wrong food (chicken fingers). That was at lease two weeks, so it's not been bad lately.
I've also weend myself off one of my 2x day altace for my high blood pressure. I've had it check at the drug store and my doctor's a few times and it's still good. I've also gone from 3x day Metaformin to 2x day.
2 weeks ago I was in a real downer, really depressed, with no purpose I felt. This week is much better, and I even went for a job interview today, which I'm pretty sure I've got. The money sucks but it's 2 blocks from where we live.
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It's still pretty surreal to me. I'm still in a size 18 pants, yet they look as my husband says "like a flying squirral" when I pull the sides. Some are actually falling off, but I'm still not quite at a size 16.
I'm able to eat almost anything within reason. Just small amounts. Today I had a sliver of pepperoni pizza and was able to handle that just fine. I'm eating mostly chicken, fat free cheese, shrimp, and other meats or seafood. I still haven't dumped, but have thrown up four times after eating too much or even the wrong food (chicken fingers). That was at lease two weeks, so it's not been bad lately.
I've also weend myself off one of my 2x day altace for my high blood pressure. I've had it check at the drug store and my doctor's a few times and it's still good. I've also gone from 3x day Metaformin to 2x day.
2 weeks ago I was in a real downer, really depressed, with no purpose I felt. This week is much better, and I even went for a job interview today, which I'm pretty sure I've got. The money sucks but it's 2 blocks from where we live.
First ten days after surgery
May 14, 2010
In some ways it's gone much better then I expected but others not so much. I find I'm having mood swings pretty bad. Three days after surgery I couldn't get ah old of my husband who had come back home to go back to work and I had a crying fit. Then when he came out to see me on the weekend I had three more, and then decided I was coming home three days early!
I had my follow up appointment on Wed, which was basically a waste of time. He just asked how I'm feeling, if I've been sick, dumping, blah blah blah.
I'm mostly off the pain killers and going for walks. Yesterday I woke up at seven am and was so hyper and wanting to DO something!!!
My friend and other supporters from the WLF are telling me NOT to do any vacuuming or stuff like that, but it's hard for me to leave it. I have much more energy now, and my hubby works his butt off and I like him coming home to a clean house.
I'm still not eating as much as I should be, but am getting better. I'm having more problems with the vitamins then anything (and resting) I'm not taking nearly enough Iron so I'm going to send my son out for the right stuff when he gets here in a hour or so. I also find that me, who used to sleep at lease 12 hrs a day and could nap another three (ex specially when I was sick) can't sleep as much. I think I've only napped three times since I've been out of the hospital!!! Kinda annoying cause I know my body NEEDS it.
I've lost 18lbs which is great :) Gotta love that! Haven't checked my measurements yet. Some days it looks like I've gained a pound, but it's back done the next day, so I'm thinking it's just water.
Was a very bad girl last night and had sex with my hubby. They told me with the hysterectomy that it was six weeks and we waited six days, so I figured that after nine days, I'd be ok. Hurt a little, but I was feeling like I was really communing down with something last night (like a chest cold) and had a horrible night with a sore throat, sore ears and a cough. Kept having very strange dreams and waking up every few minutes. Took the codeine this morning more for the cough then the pain!
Feeling better now, except for being dizzy, but again that's due to the iron. I'm suppose to get my INR done today and Dr Malik has a whole pile of blood tests that need to be done, but not sure when. Think I may just do them today. If I'm going to get poked, may as well get it all done at once.
Oh I'm also feeling very airheaded! I'm having probelms with my thought process, like if I think too hard it hurts lol, rack that up to the drugs too I guess :)
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I had my follow up appointment on Wed, which was basically a waste of time. He just asked how I'm feeling, if I've been sick, dumping, blah blah blah.
I'm mostly off the pain killers and going for walks. Yesterday I woke up at seven am and was so hyper and wanting to DO something!!!
My friend and other supporters from the WLF are telling me NOT to do any vacuuming or stuff like that, but it's hard for me to leave it. I have much more energy now, and my hubby works his butt off and I like him coming home to a clean house.
I'm still not eating as much as I should be, but am getting better. I'm having more problems with the vitamins then anything (and resting) I'm not taking nearly enough Iron so I'm going to send my son out for the right stuff when he gets here in a hour or so. I also find that me, who used to sleep at lease 12 hrs a day and could nap another three (ex specially when I was sick) can't sleep as much. I think I've only napped three times since I've been out of the hospital!!! Kinda annoying cause I know my body NEEDS it.
I've lost 18lbs which is great :) Gotta love that! Haven't checked my measurements yet. Some days it looks like I've gained a pound, but it's back done the next day, so I'm thinking it's just water.
Was a very bad girl last night and had sex with my hubby. They told me with the hysterectomy that it was six weeks and we waited six days, so I figured that after nine days, I'd be ok. Hurt a little, but I was feeling like I was really communing down with something last night (like a chest cold) and had a horrible night with a sore throat, sore ears and a cough. Kept having very strange dreams and waking up every few minutes. Took the codeine this morning more for the cough then the pain!
Feeling better now, except for being dizzy, but again that's due to the iron. I'm suppose to get my INR done today and Dr Malik has a whole pile of blood tests that need to be done, but not sure when. Think I may just do them today. If I'm going to get poked, may as well get it all done at once.
Oh I'm also feeling very airheaded! I'm having probelms with my thought process, like if I think too hard it hurts lol, rack that up to the drugs too I guess :)
It is sooooooooooo done!!!!
May 10, 2010
I had my surgery last Tuesday!! Yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! What a trip! lol
It's all kind of surreal still :)
I last four days on the liquid only diet, then started to eat small things like a 1/3 chicken salad, a tiny bit of what was for dinner etc, still kept it under 1000 calories and still lost ten lbs.
My surgery was set for May 4th in Victoria with Dr Malik at 7:50 am. The night before we got a room at the Empress which kind of sucked for me cause I had to do the bowl prep (not so bad) but didn't want to leave the room! I was awake by five am, having to be at the hospital by six. We actually arrived about twenty minutes early.
I checked in, and then they sent me to surgical daycare. I thought my husband would be staying with me until they literally wheeled me in, and was quite unhappy to find out that wasn't the case. They made him kiss me bye at the doors to surgerical daycare and said Dr Malik will call when she's out of surgery!!!!! I don't know who was more upset, me or him
When I had seen the *spleepy doctor* he said he could freeze my hand before they do the iv as I don't like em. Well of course I have a nurse who comes and wants to do it right away. They put emla cream on the top of my hand and as luck would have it lately, they decided to do it on the side of my damn wrist instead. So I said just go for it!
I had several people come by and look at my chart, actually READING it, then it was time to be wheeled in! I checked the clock and it was exaclty 7:50!! I was so impressed on how on time they were!!!
Dr Malik met me at the door, and brought up the fact again he was worried about the scar tissue from my speen and if he could *even do a RNY* which freaked me out, since he's never said anything about not doing it, just maybe difficult! So he asked if he can't do I want my hernia done, and then we can talk about the sleeve in a few months. I'm like "Don't even talk to me, just do the sleeve!!!!" lol he said he couldn't and would have to talk to me about it more.
Anyways, the nurse came out and introduced herself and then I could hear them all do a last minute check list of me, and everything else (something I've never heard before) They put the oxygen mask on me, and I remember someone adjusting it and saying deep breaths......then nothing.
Don't even remmeber coming out of recovery, but rather being wheeled down the hall and mutter to everyone "did he DO it?", and my husband walking beside me saying how much he loved me.
Well it turns out the 24 inch scar I have down my belly from my ruptured spleen DID cause a few problems. Mainly, my firggin spleen had grown BACK!!!
RIGHT where he was heading! So it took a few more hours, and a few more scars, but he was able to do it without any further problems.
Dr Malik even thanked me later for making it a interesting day :) My husband was out in the parking lot so nervous that he was puking and crying and just being upset about the thought of losing me
I was brought into a semi private room with a male roomie and slept most of the next 24 hours with shots of morphine and gravol to knock me out.. I also had to wear these nasty nasty leg things to prevent blood clots. Think of blood pressure cuffs all the way down your legs that inflate every friggin minute 24/7 and feel like wool socks!
My hubby had to go back to work that night, so off he went. I also remember Brother John from the fourms coming to visit me and he's such a wonderful guy!
I was sooooooooooooo thirsty and dreaming of my husband, water and doing the damn leak test lol. The next morning Dr Malik came in and said I looked wonderful (I was already up and walking around from after a couple of hours after surgery) and he was very please with how things went.
My leak test was set for 10:45 and I was wheeled down there, told to stand against a xray machine and then they gave me this big cup with a HUGE straw and told me to take three huge gulps!!!!! My first thought was how cold it was (NICE) and then how wet (NICE) and then GROSS!!!! but at lease I got something to drink. The test was ok, back to the room and asked for ice chips and juice!!!! The nurse brings me a huge glass of apple juice with ice and a straw. HHAHAHAHA I'm suppose to have a tiny medical cup of fluids every hour, so I'm not sure how I was suppose to measure THAT. At that point I didn't care though! I just started doing the chips and sips of juice.
Lunch came with a bunch of stuff, which my nurse said I could have 2 of something. I chose a jello (which was NOT sugar free) and had maybe 2 spoon fulls, and then more juice of course. In the hospital that's all I would *eat*.
Since I was in such a drug induced haze the few days, I know I had several great nurses, but one, a readheaded named Lydia really stands out in my mind! What a doll! She made things so much funny and really cared about her patients. She has me laughing as she had to do suppositories.
Thursday came and Dr Malik came to see me again saying how well I was looking and doing, said I could leave whenever I wanted, and I already had a follow up with him for next Wed. The plan was suggested that I stay in town until then.
I don't know what happened then, but all of a sudden about half a hour later, I started to bawl and couldn't stop! I missed my husband so much! I took a adivan, waited 40 minutes before I called him so I wouldn't feak him out. Got him on the phone and started bawling anyways. He told me the guys were pitching in to have him out of work early Friday so he could come stay the weekend with me. Meanwhile my oldest son was suppose to be here already and I didn thave a clue where he was or how to get ahold of him. Brother John had given me his phone number, so I decided instead of sitting there like a crybaby, I'm was leaving and going to my hotel at the Swann Suites.
Brother John came and got me, and helped me get settled. What a friggin beautiful place! I very very highly recommmend it to everyone!
I waited a bit but then decided since I didn't know when my son was coming, I had to go get my meds filled. I ended up walking six blocks and hearing from Donnie while at the druggist.
We met up at the hotel and it was such a releif to have someone there :) He was such a big help. My husband went into work at three am on Friday so he could leave by 10:30 to come be with me. Of course I bawled when I seen him and had 3 major crying jags within 24 hours! Damn emotions!!!
We'd go out for walks alot, and the pain was toleratable, actually maybe better then I expected. I just get so inpatient. I did have a bit of shortness of breath and was dizzy for the first few days, but I was dizzy at the hospital so it was nothing to worry about. I also have to give myself 2x day herperin injections for blood clots.
I woke up Sunday morning and out of no where, decided I was coming home with my husband! No way I was going to be away from him for three more days!!!! So within a hour we were packed and out, heading to the ferry.
I've had a few rough days with the pain, tired, but today's the only day I've taken a nap. My back is sore from being stiff and not stetching my tummy out I guess, but other then that I'm feeling really good today.
I hope this helps you and if you have any questions please, don't hesitate to ask :)
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It's all kind of surreal still :)
I last four days on the liquid only diet, then started to eat small things like a 1/3 chicken salad, a tiny bit of what was for dinner etc, still kept it under 1000 calories and still lost ten lbs.
My surgery was set for May 4th in Victoria with Dr Malik at 7:50 am. The night before we got a room at the Empress which kind of sucked for me cause I had to do the bowl prep (not so bad) but didn't want to leave the room! I was awake by five am, having to be at the hospital by six. We actually arrived about twenty minutes early.
I checked in, and then they sent me to surgical daycare. I thought my husband would be staying with me until they literally wheeled me in, and was quite unhappy to find out that wasn't the case. They made him kiss me bye at the doors to surgerical daycare and said Dr Malik will call when she's out of surgery!!!!! I don't know who was more upset, me or him
When I had seen the *spleepy doctor* he said he could freeze my hand before they do the iv as I don't like em. Well of course I have a nurse who comes and wants to do it right away. They put emla cream on the top of my hand and as luck would have it lately, they decided to do it on the side of my damn wrist instead. So I said just go for it!
I had several people come by and look at my chart, actually READING it, then it was time to be wheeled in! I checked the clock and it was exaclty 7:50!! I was so impressed on how on time they were!!!
Dr Malik met me at the door, and brought up the fact again he was worried about the scar tissue from my speen and if he could *even do a RNY* which freaked me out, since he's never said anything about not doing it, just maybe difficult! So he asked if he can't do I want my hernia done, and then we can talk about the sleeve in a few months. I'm like "Don't even talk to me, just do the sleeve!!!!" lol he said he couldn't and would have to talk to me about it more.
Anyways, the nurse came out and introduced herself and then I could hear them all do a last minute check list of me, and everything else (something I've never heard before) They put the oxygen mask on me, and I remember someone adjusting it and saying deep breaths......then nothing.
Don't even remmeber coming out of recovery, but rather being wheeled down the hall and mutter to everyone "did he DO it?", and my husband walking beside me saying how much he loved me.
Well it turns out the 24 inch scar I have down my belly from my ruptured spleen DID cause a few problems. Mainly, my firggin spleen had grown BACK!!!
RIGHT where he was heading! So it took a few more hours, and a few more scars, but he was able to do it without any further problems.Dr Malik even thanked me later for making it a interesting day :) My husband was out in the parking lot so nervous that he was puking and crying and just being upset about the thought of losing me
I was brought into a semi private room with a male roomie and slept most of the next 24 hours with shots of morphine and gravol to knock me out.. I also had to wear these nasty nasty leg things to prevent blood clots. Think of blood pressure cuffs all the way down your legs that inflate every friggin minute 24/7 and feel like wool socks!
My hubby had to go back to work that night, so off he went. I also remember Brother John from the fourms coming to visit me and he's such a wonderful guy!
I was sooooooooooooo thirsty and dreaming of my husband, water and doing the damn leak test lol. The next morning Dr Malik came in and said I looked wonderful (I was already up and walking around from after a couple of hours after surgery) and he was very please with how things went.
My leak test was set for 10:45 and I was wheeled down there, told to stand against a xray machine and then they gave me this big cup with a HUGE straw and told me to take three huge gulps!!!!! My first thought was how cold it was (NICE) and then how wet (NICE) and then GROSS!!!! but at lease I got something to drink. The test was ok, back to the room and asked for ice chips and juice!!!! The nurse brings me a huge glass of apple juice with ice and a straw. HHAHAHAHA I'm suppose to have a tiny medical cup of fluids every hour, so I'm not sure how I was suppose to measure THAT. At that point I didn't care though! I just started doing the chips and sips of juice.
Lunch came with a bunch of stuff, which my nurse said I could have 2 of something. I chose a jello (which was NOT sugar free) and had maybe 2 spoon fulls, and then more juice of course. In the hospital that's all I would *eat*.
Since I was in such a drug induced haze the few days, I know I had several great nurses, but one, a readheaded named Lydia really stands out in my mind! What a doll! She made things so much funny and really cared about her patients. She has me laughing as she had to do suppositories.
Thursday came and Dr Malik came to see me again saying how well I was looking and doing, said I could leave whenever I wanted, and I already had a follow up with him for next Wed. The plan was suggested that I stay in town until then.
I don't know what happened then, but all of a sudden about half a hour later, I started to bawl and couldn't stop! I missed my husband so much! I took a adivan, waited 40 minutes before I called him so I wouldn't feak him out. Got him on the phone and started bawling anyways. He told me the guys were pitching in to have him out of work early Friday so he could come stay the weekend with me. Meanwhile my oldest son was suppose to be here already and I didn thave a clue where he was or how to get ahold of him. Brother John had given me his phone number, so I decided instead of sitting there like a crybaby, I'm was leaving and going to my hotel at the Swann Suites.
Brother John came and got me, and helped me get settled. What a friggin beautiful place! I very very highly recommmend it to everyone!
I waited a bit but then decided since I didn't know when my son was coming, I had to go get my meds filled. I ended up walking six blocks and hearing from Donnie while at the druggist.
We met up at the hotel and it was such a releif to have someone there :) He was such a big help. My husband went into work at three am on Friday so he could leave by 10:30 to come be with me. Of course I bawled when I seen him and had 3 major crying jags within 24 hours! Damn emotions!!!
We'd go out for walks alot, and the pain was toleratable, actually maybe better then I expected. I just get so inpatient. I did have a bit of shortness of breath and was dizzy for the first few days, but I was dizzy at the hospital so it was nothing to worry about. I also have to give myself 2x day herperin injections for blood clots.
I woke up Sunday morning and out of no where, decided I was coming home with my husband! No way I was going to be away from him for three more days!!!! So within a hour we were packed and out, heading to the ferry.
I've had a few rough days with the pain, tired, but today's the only day I've taken a nap. My back is sore from being stiff and not stetching my tummy out I guess, but other then that I'm feeling really good today.
I hope this helps you and if you have any questions please, don't hesitate to ask :)
Day thren pre surgery liquid diet
Apr 23, 2010
Well it's been far from easy, but not as hard as I thought either! Day 1 was the worse of course, and then yesterday & today I don't have the hunger pangs as much. It's more like a empty ache in my tummy.
Yesterday I kept reaching for food to munch on, or thinking "I'll have_____ for dinner/lunch" NOT! More brother and water instead.
I just had Won Ton soup as it's a clear broth....those darn WT's were floating at the bottom trying to get into my mouth! I was so damn tempted. So in a second of willpower I thru em right out the window!!! lol
I meet with the anesthesiologist on Monday and then I'll be going to Victoria on the 3ed and staying at the Empress the night before surgery. I have to be at RJH by six am for surgery at 7:50. I'm hoping....ok, NOT hoping but trying to be realistic, that I'll be out of surgery and recovery not too late so my husband can take the ferry back to Surrrey for work the next day. He's horrible at hospitals and would make me more uptight if he was around and we want him to take as little time off as possible.
My friend Maureen who just had her's done on the 1st of April will hopefully be able to come out on Thursday and pick me up from the hops ital (assuming every things going well) and then we're staying at the Swann Hotel & Suites. My husband Don will join us on Friday or Saturday and stay until Sunday night.
I'm really starting to get excited now! Although I am suffering from some bad headaches, cramps and of course the good ole runs.
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Yesterday I kept reaching for food to munch on, or thinking "I'll have_____ for dinner/lunch" NOT! More brother and water instead.
I just had Won Ton soup as it's a clear broth....those darn WT's were floating at the bottom trying to get into my mouth! I was so damn tempted. So in a second of willpower I thru em right out the window!!! lol
I meet with the anesthesiologist on Monday and then I'll be going to Victoria on the 3ed and staying at the Empress the night before surgery. I have to be at RJH by six am for surgery at 7:50. I'm hoping....ok, NOT hoping but trying to be realistic, that I'll be out of surgery and recovery not too late so my husband can take the ferry back to Surrrey for work the next day. He's horrible at hospitals and would make me more uptight if he was around and we want him to take as little time off as possible.
My friend Maureen who just had her's done on the 1st of April will hopefully be able to come out on Thursday and pick me up from the hops ital (assuming every things going well) and then we're staying at the Swann Hotel & Suites. My husband Don will join us on Friday or Saturday and stay until Sunday night.
I'm really starting to get excited now! Although I am suffering from some bad headaches, cramps and of course the good ole runs.
About Me
Surrey, BC
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33.6
BMI
Surgery
05/04/2010
Surgery Date
Oct 06, 2007
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